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2006-10-22T19:20:00.000+08:00

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2006-09-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

not been blogging this few daes....was realli into a very very big consideration...in my heart long ago i was actually thinking and considering...well after wat edmund and zl sae it make me even more into pondering mode...well i find wat dey sae is abit true even it sounds lame...but i think back issit tat wat i wan??...well wat ppl sae does make sense to me la...but i realli abit confuse abt it...

sumtimes i feel myself talking to a wall....and got back a word reply or even worst no reply....am i so irrtating????wen i talk nicely at times i got back is either a cold reply or a very very hot reply....at times i realli feels soooo sour....dey are realli realli rite...i shld realli think hard and make a decision....bet u guys dunnoe wat this entry abt...well if u dunnoe den is not ment for u to noe....

2006-08-27T00:48:00.000+08:00

wah todae is realli a powerful testi....shall share it for the comin cell...im jux so excited over my new song...well is SO POWERFUL!!!....is goin to be a testi...realli tat song is going to be my living offering to God...my first song i ever wrote...wow...im realli very impress so actually haha...JUX SO HAPPY....LALALA~~~~...LOL...after all the trying and failing finally i got sum thing is realli satisfying...haha...im jux happy...i wan to write more songs for the LORD!!!!....

wow beside tat...was suprise to manage get zl and et to church todae...was realli a big testi oso...i tried to get dem for so long...prayers after prayers and nw it happen...wow is jux so powerful...todae preaching the pastor preach one part where he sae abt the passion of Christ...i was lyk dunnoe y i was brought in a another dimension...is lyk i seeing real life thing...is not jux a ordinary vision i see....is realli so real tat i can even feel the scars at the back of Jesus...i dun feel the pain of coz la...but i can feel the scars...i dunnoe how to describe...is a kind of feeling hard to describe...is sumthing very powerful...WOW PRAISE THE LORD!!! tat is wat i can sae...

jux reach hme frm church...i jux stp playin over the song i wrote...trying to find sum editing to make it a perfect piece im realli jux so excited over it....realli...i dunnoe how to sae abt it but i realli glad over the standard...haha...is realli a big TESTI...shall it for comin cell...

2006-08-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

been thru lots and lots of ups and down this few weeks...realli is a tough spirtual warfare...but well i belive i will grow even stronger in faith and spirtually...in fact im starting to fight back nw...even though im still wounded during the warfare...im finally on my toes fighting back this time round...read through all my pass bdae cards....was very inspired and motivated by the card my cell ppl gave me last yr...there is this one inspiring msg in my card by jason and it goes...

A Goal comes From a Dream
A Dream Comes From a Vision
A Vision is being set off by Desire
And a Desire is Mark down by a Decision...

was realli reading this message again and again...i start to realli understands wat it means...it realli motivates me...hope it does motivates ppl hu have a dream...during my spirtual warfare i was realli doubt my faith and dream...but jux frm no where a this sentence of words pops in front of me..."If dreams are ment to be realistic then why do we still need Miracles from God?"
is lyk wow...i was pondering this again and again...it does make sense...do we think our dreams are realistic???...if dreams are realistic it will not be called dreams in the first place...do u think dreams cme without Miracles?? obviously it does cme wif Miracles ....then where do Miracles cme from???...obviously is God!!!...

2006-08-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

argh jux reali yeseterdae during cell pratice after service tat my worship songs all de-improve ...shit la...guess i pratice too much on my praise songs for the past 1 mth never focus on woship songs....i was very very shock we i go off beat yesterdae...i was thinking wat the hack am i doin and OH SHIT!!!...argh den todae wen to smoothen out my worship songs....den realise tat i lyk forget how to play...even i sing go off beat wif my playin...realli played too much praise songs liao...took mee the whole of my sun to smoothen out everything again...at least nw much more better....argh wats happening to me...guess i will take these few days to balance out my woship songs and praise songs b4 cell...i guess i think i will be playin better this time round after seeing chuting play...manage to adapt some new tricks...haha...havent realli try yet...but ya i guess will be slightly better...

seems tat im having cold war wif my bro...jux hate his stinking attitude....always thinks tat his rite and im always wrong...he jux din realise most of his frens dun lyk his attitude loh....we tried to tell him...and again HE THINKS HIS RITE!!!!!!....argue wif him the other time....jux cant stand him loh...argh dun wan to talk abt him...makes me boiled my blood...

jux realise tat my life everthing nw dun works well...argh wat is the hack is happening to me...quite pissed of wif quite number of ppl these few daes...not tat im not forgiving..but is more den once...argh!!!...i was jux trying to be friendly and nice...but do i deserve all these???

argh typin all there makes me hungry...wats wrong wif my diet there few daes i seems to eat alot den de next moment i dun feel lyk eating...

2006-08-12T01:05:00.000+08:00

talk peter todae...well was realli convinced by wat he sae...i actually agree wif him...but well there is an option for me...shld i take it?... if i choose tat option is realli goin to be very tuff... well in every tuff journey there will be a pay off...as he was talking to me...i begin to see flash back of my past...the time i ran away frm tuff situation and bcoz of tat i lost out all the benifits...and bcoz of tat i regreted for my life...the past i chose to run away...but nw this kind of options appear to me again...i was realli totally stucked... do i wan to regret lyk last time??? or do i wan to stand at the finishing line and said i made the right choice??...since i have cme so far already wats is the point of letting it go??? it seems tat i am one of the chosen one by God...

2006-08-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

have been very quiet for this few weeks...well my frens and classmate were asking me are u alright y so quiet...jux not myself la...use to be very noisy...well there is nth happen to me la...dun worry la...is onli lots of things in my mind...

was fasting todae...suddenly was been promted to fast by the Holyspirit...so gave up all the money in my wallet for tithes and offering...well im fasting for talent and confident for my Ministry...this request is nw very porpular in my mind this few weeks even though i have been asking for more then a yr... many temptations arnd me nw even im at hme...wen to open the fridge saw sushi so tempting...i will not lose to the devil too bad i will not fall in to ur temptation...in order to resist the temptation i will slp early tonite since im not having enough slp this week...

im still not satisfy for my perfomance last cell...even though i feel tat there is slight improvment...but to me im not up to my expectation...how i wish i can master the skill my teacher showed me todae...playing bass and solo plus rythem in cell...so cool...todae lesson is very difficult...the solo thing...learn penatonics major and penatonics minor scales...think shld be spelled this way...playin it in C box and A box....den horizontal scale...den dunnoe wat blues thing argh!!!...

2006-08-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

well yesterdae was my bdae...thx eveyone...haha...kana bdae pinch by my whole class after school...argh nw got lots of blue black...

quite busy few this few weeks esp this whole...im totally pack...lots of appoitment here and there...nw is my last 6mths in sch...lots of projects to do...3 projects plus one BIG MAJOR project...argh!!!....wen to see the price of my project jux nw...i think is more den $500bucks...argh!!! over budget...SHIT LA....i have to cut down lots of things liao the most expensive is de LED motherboard... jux tat one already 300+...argh need more funding frm sch liao...seen other grp dey hav already noe wat to buy...my grp leh...haix...still planning...

argh!!! not having enough slp lately...partly is i wake up too early slp too late...cannot blame mah...my sch nw this semester dismiss so damm late...by the time reach hme 7plus liao den onli got 3 to 4 hrs do my own stuff...

lots of thing happen in sch todae...I JUX CANT STP LAUGHING....argh lazy to sae... few more hrs to cell grp...argh...i guess shld not be a prob la...

2006-08-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

jux few more hrs away to my Bdae...sumthing bad happen to me in sch todae......realli pissed me off...there goes my hair and color...argh...todae sch spot check hair and color at first mine pass...de lecturer are ok with my hair...den cme de section head...idiot wen he walk in to de lab first thing i kana caught liao...den nw cut my hair den de color starts to fade...argh...it took me 3mths to grow tat long and cut such a stylo hair with de colors...argh i lyk it alot loh...i REALLI LYK IT MAN...and nw there goes my hair.,..arrgh im so depress till nw...argh....MY HAIR!!!!!.....nvm stay happy must phsyco myself...few more hrs to bdae...hhaha.... my parents bough me a cake haha how nice of dem...

2006-07-29T11:51:00.000+08:00

wen to et hse to stay overnite wif yz and zl jux came back nia...did lots of stuff yesterdae frm afternoon go gym train den go swim den go sauna...den after tat go play dota den maple...LOL...did lots of things la...den wen to play his piano...i jux found it easy to find de notes on de piano compare to guitar loh...guitar de notes is all jumper up one...but piano is lyk so easy to find...heard his bro play guitar...well not bad...

last thur mid week service the attendence was bad...actually i dun even feel lyk goin...was very down then...was realli been press down by thr words satan said...i was realli press down...den suddenly i heard the fire fall down playin on my window media player...realli touches me...then there is wen i heard God talking to me..."From The Glory you gave Me, I will make sure you will never be the same again"...I guess God is actually saying thank you to me for all the things i done for Him jux tat words realli encourage me alot...the word "From the Glory you gave me" He actually knows my hard work for Him and He appreciates it He seen thru me He knows my heart for Him...and the word " I will make sure you will never be the same again" coz of I build His house and now He will build mine...was quite touch by the words...during my warfare most of the time i heard satan's words and God's word is so soft...but this time round God's voice covers satan's word...after that God said come and claim what u deserve and you will see you will not be the same again...so actually wen down to service tat time...seems so little ppl...i cant feel Him the first song...i tried to jump here and there try to get His presence but i cant...so i close my eyes and said a little prayer at the last song was fire fall down...He came again...and these is the first time in these whole week i prayed with my heart...

2006-07-27T18:57:00.000+08:00

God told me on July 27 2006 6:53pm...From the Glory you given Me i will not Let you be the same again...well guess is a motivation word from Him..

2006-07-27T18:26:00.000+08:00

well im still feeling down over my issiue...is not tat im mad wif de person...i have forgiven de person long time ago...but is onli im still very disappointed la...well if u guys realli been thru all the 1yr of constant disappointment guess u will noe wat i mean...yes i have strong determination after each time i fail i will still climb on can continue my journey...but im a human too...i will sure get tired one day...i jux dunnoe wat to sae...im having lots of warfare in me rite not jux in my ministry but oso in many areas la...i cant denied tat i very weak nw...realli i hav to admit i very spirtual weak nw...

well God have been trying to make me happy by doin a few stuff todae...but well i jux rejected it...He tried to speak to me but i dun wan to listen...im jux very reluctant to hear all the Godly stuff rite nw...

2006-07-23T18:16:00.000+08:00

till nw i still very mad and hurt plus xtremly dissapointed....i dunnoe shld i still carry on or jux give up and walk off...jux looking back on my efforts it keeps me goin on...but wen i look at de out cme it disappoints me...talk to one of my old fren on msn jux nw...well she dun seems to understand me either...well but she said sumthing quite true...

well i understand that sumtimes things need to be said...but do u need to sae so directly? without thinking of others being hurt or not?...this is not de first time...i have been keeping silent for so loong...and sumore if front of so many ppl???

i was looking arnd...all the ppl arnd me seems so fortunate...when they are sad or dissapointed they have sumone to lean to...but well me?? i have no one...i have to carry all de dissapointment all by myself...and is getting heavier and heavier...wenever i wanted to share to the people they seems not willing to listen...but during my friends most saddness and dissapointed time i was there for dem despite all my disssapointment i have...it seems that i can encourage ppl to move on and motivate them...but it seems that i cant do it on myself...

well ppl may sae is onli a cellgrp...then i can sae de person dont know me well...do u noe how much effort i have put in since 1yr ago?? how much time i have chip in...how many sacrifices i have?? and much moneny and tears spend???jux to cme to this level?? and u expect me nw to take it lightly???...that word realli pissed me off...frm all this hardwork de outcme is a fail...is a great dissapointment and once again i have to carry all by myself...i always cried to God wenever im dissapointed...but where is He??? i cant feel Him...whenever i fail i always find ways to motivate myself...there are totally noe one there to motivates me...support me...totally no one...no one is there to be with me during my most disaapointed times...ppl dun seems to understand me this is onli my 5th time in cell playin...they sae they understand but how much do they???

sometimes is inside me and i realli wan to burst out...wenever i share wif others i always revecied back a 1 or 2 words reply...but wen others are down...they always got more then 1 paragraph of motivating words frm their friends...im not saying that im jealous... i jux wan to let u guys noe how i feel...todae posting may be discouraging to others...but i realli cant take it anymore i realli want to spill out everything...

2006-07-23T01:28:00.000+08:00

im very hurt mad and dissapointed...i dun wish to sae it here BCOZ I AM SENSTIVE!!!....im not that kind if person hu is not SENSITIVE AND OVER TOO DIRECT AND HURTING with their words...at least i still care for their reputation...well i jux need lots of time to cool down...i dun wish to hurt anyone frm my actions or words nw...

well at least i seen things already...in life is realli hard to treat a person nice...yet de person treat u in another way...well...this is life...is full negative stuff...after this incident i have a strong intention to give up...i mean in everything!!...i already have enough since im not talented in it guess other can do a better job den me...i dun feel needed anymore...well depends on how it goes...well is God playing a fool of me??? well i will see... i having been praying and working so damm freaking hard for more den 1 yr spending time and moneny and soo much effort and i mean real lotsss...yet the outcome is haix... XTREMLY DISAPPOINTED!!!! this not de first time is been lyk this for more den a yr but this time is even worst haix.......well it will depends on my will to move on anot nw...if not guess u guys will noe wat i mean

2006-07-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

well i dun wish to bring this up...but well i stand in de middle standing...i dun wish to offend anyone...will i jux hope my posting will be more encouraging instead of destroying sumone...will i can sense sparks everywhere nw...i not sure wat is exactly goin on...but i can tell you i can hear satan is talking...well sumtimes argues or quarrel weld us together more closer we got a chance to see each other hates and likes and frm there we will take precaution next time so that we will not offend de person again...well i cant blame u ppl who are close infact is good that you guys are close...i am not suprise to see you guys so close coz most of u all are frm the same school and see each other almost everydae and some of you are oso taking Os together i belive this is de reason y u guys are closer...is ok if u have close frens in church infact next time our church grow in de size lyk city havest u cannot expect everyone to noe each other rite?? and this is de reason y cell grps are for???...jux lyk our human body we have lots and lots of cell...and in each cell there are many particals inside de cell lyk plasma bla bla bla(im not good in bio so dun blame me) each part of this particals in the cell have a role to play...and each cell in de body have a part to play too... if a partical in de cell dun work...do u think de whole cell will work out well??? then if de cell dun work out well do u think de body will function well???... sumtimes different cell groups they cant understand other cellgroups well u cant blame tat too...is infact is a sign tat our church is growing do u think all the cell group in cityhavest noe each other well?? NO!...but tat doesnt tat we dun fellowship together rite? coz we are one BODY...as i sae if one cell dun work well do u think de body can function well?..i admit i have close frens in church too...but it doesnt mean tat i dun fellowship with other members...remeber this ppl we are a part not apart

Ps: Sylvia i have high hopes for u but im not putting pressure on u...i respect ur priorities in ur life...but i jux wan to tell u DO NOT look at de Obstacles towards ur goal...satan noes wat u wan to do for the LORD and of coz he is unhappy...he will find ways to attack ur WEAKNESS so tat u will not succed...well i being thru tat stage and i can tell u is not easy even nw im still struggling...But the Lord sae if u wan to follow me u have to carry the cross...

2006-07-13T12:44:00.000+08:00

PRAISE DE LORD!!! i got 3 testi this whole mth.....haha...God is indeed faithful...haha i noe i dun hav de chance to share during cell...but i dun mind sharing it nw...shall share de latest testi...de next 2 testi shall leave it next time...haha...

was quite worried over my results actually...coz i din realli do well in the exams...i think i flunk one of module de exams...as i expected tat i will flunk tat module...b4 the exams i push my projects and praticals hope tat it can cover up my exams...hope tat i will hav at least a B for tat module....was praying damm hard to get tat grade B coz i cant afford to get a C or else my GPA will have a great impact which make my chances to poly even lower... den during my examinations frm de paper i took i was totally damm disappointed all de qus seems so stranger to me den i started lose hope...jux hoping to get a C instead of B......jux yesterdae i received my results i was damm shock...i got a B for tat Module and the rest of de module...and my GPA score is 3.214...my GPA still above 3 at least i still remain qualified for poly and higher nitec...

2006-07-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

todae wen to my ex church...my grandma aunt and 2 cousin baptize todae...haha long time never go back liao...all de small kids i noe nw grow up liao...haha...wah u noe how dey baptize mah...i mean de stage is soo stylo loh...haha...at first is P&W...haha their P&W still de same...haha i feel werid wen i go their P&W...haha...cant blame is tradtional church tats y...all their song is i not use to it de...found it weird tats all...haha...more towards tat kind of...dunnoe how to sae...haha...den is lyk very weird loh...long time never go the kind of church where ppl dun jump here and there and shout and scream here and there de...haha...all lyk so sad sad lyk tat...haha...den P&W finish...den was preaching...haha as usual my uncle preach...oh his a pastor of tat church anywae...haha...de preaching sounds boring...but i force myself to hear...actually quite meanginful leh...haha...as usual one translator is always standing next to de pastor...haha den is de testimony sharing for thoes ppl goin to be baptize...haha most of dem are small children...cant stp lauging wen dey speak...haha...dey are realli cute and funny..haha...den de baptize Ceremony begin...den i realise jux under de stage is a pool....haha...at first i see ppl remove de cover on de stage...den wen dey remove it completly den i realise jux under de stage is a pool...haha...stylo rite...haha...den de Ceremony begin...first was my grandma...as my grandma walk dwn to de water...and she was personally baptize by my uncle which is her son...jux as she walk dwn to de water...i can sense a strong and powerful huge force of HolySpirit..is lyk sumthing Holy is arnd de place...i dunnoe how to describe...next person goin to baptize was my aunt den follow by my cousins...den to de small kids in my church...i felt tat my family are so bless i mean my mum side...all my aunt and uncles to my cousins and grandma...at my mum side mostly are christian...dey were once very commited to other gods...but nw dey were all christians...wow...and my uncle prayed for dem for dunnoe how many yrs tat dey will convert by christ...he prayed 24yrs for my grandma to convert...haha...power rite...

one of de big testimony happen is my granddad came and witness my grandma and aunt and cousin been baptize...he was once very anti towards christ...but nw was damm suprise to see him in church...i got a sense tat he will be converted next...well dunnoe wen will be my parents turn...frm all these i realise one thing...prayers mayb take long to be answerd but de pay off is more den wat u pray for....

2006-07-07T11:51:00.000+08:00

not very satisfy with my performance yesterdae...argh i can do times better den tat...i guess i shld stp playing elec for de time being focus on acoustic liao...too much elec for me...wen hme last nite and do evaluation...realise few pointers already...working on it nw...well guess will better in de next cell... i think i seriously need a music stand in my room...jux hate to put my chord book on my table...heard frm others is onli 15bucks...but i see in yahama is 40bucks...jux saw one in sweelee onli 20bucks on de web guess i will be getting tat one

2006-07-06T16:53:00.000+08:00

i can few a little nervous nw...haha coz later playin for cell...well at least much more better den last time...guess is bcoz too long never play for cell..haha...i fingers realli hurt...too much of play elec liao...de strings is so thin easy to get cut...can see tat my room is rather MESSY...argh...no time to clean...haha...eveydae out until so late...well guess tml will hav time...coz tml nth mah...haha...i nid to buy hooks...for my guitar bag to hook dem up on my shelves...i nid a bigger table i mean real big lyk de one peter is using...too much stuff on my table liao...thinking of getting a chord stand...dunnoe wat is de name for it...den i no nid to find my chord book...haha...coz always hidden underneath all the stuff on my table...

learn new stuff frm my teacher...de one string solo...and motive solo ( mutiples strings )... quite cool...but i onli noe in Cmajor...argh...still got long way to go...haha...hav been memorising all de notes on de fret board...wah realli can die...there are total 144 notes leh...including 2 ocatives...haha...can die...i nw onli memorise de 6th and 5th string nia...i mean memorise in finger tips...haha...great achivement liao...coz my memory very bad de...haha...

2006-07-02T19:38:00.000+08:00

wow todae is realli was a guitaring experience i have in my life...i play constantly 8hrs can u belife it but of coz got stp for lunch la...den abit of 5mins break...i woke at 12pm start wacking till nw 8pm....haha my hands are aching...i guess i played too much elec guitar liao...feels dammm weird wen i touch acoustic guitar...haha...so dun blame me hor wif comin cell not tat good...haha...pratice de cell songs jux nw...well...at least still can play la...but not use to de amount of strength on acoustic...coz im too use to elec nw...haha...and elec dun need much strength...mange to master 2 songs de solo part on elec guitar...which is The stand and from the inside out...haha one way shld not be a prob for me....tat song play until sian liao...haha...well guess im half way ready for de jamming thing comin next 2 weeks...haha onli need to smoothen my solo part...havent write tabs for tat songs yet...well haha lazy to do it...im striking hard towards my goal...haha well im actually thinking of goin to music school...haha get a degree in music??? shld i??haha...was considering jux nw...haha...will be damm ex...welll guess i will stick to my IT line...haha...blast my speaker jux nw and wack wif my elec guitar...haha....damm shoik haha...de funny part is i can play de solo part of tat song...but wen i play wif de music i will tend to be nevous den i will start to be blur...haha...im jux so crazy over guitars nw...haha...my fingers got lots of cuts liao...haha can feel de pain wen i type nw...haha

2006-06-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

I wan to hav a new lev of breakthrough in my minstry...well...i can see God's blessing...indeed de vision i seen 1 yr ago is realli happening...it had started all along...God is preparing everything nw in order de vision i see come true...jus last sat wen i was on de way to church...was on de bus God spoke to me...wat i wan in life...so i told him i wan to serve on de stage...God look at me and smile...and ask is tat wat u wanted??...yes i replied...den He said...y do u hav little faith as i can bring u to higher ground??...after wat He said i seen vision again...frm tat vision it make me change my directions of my aim...serving Him on stage in onli a steppin stone...wat i wan is not jux to serve on stage...my aim now to be a full time song artist for christ and go arnd de world to use the power of worship to touches every single one heart and with the flow of de Holy spirt changes de mindset of de unbelivers...and let the world noe wat is truly The Heart of worship...haha wow seem so not realistic...haha...well u see it u can hav it...infact if u guys look arnd in all these big churches it actually happens...lets take CHC as example..Rev Kong use to see far and he belive it...and nw u see how big is their church....next is hope church it started with 5 ppl and dey see far and dey put in all their faith in and nw POP! dey hav it...nw their church is big...even few countries oso got Hope church nw...well we mayb small...but is good tat we hav great dreams...we see so far even we are so tiny...if u guys compare de past of HLC and nw...is actually growing in size and in finaincial and in cell and many many more... it shows we are each step closer to our dreams...de faith pledge is indeed a comfirmation i belive...till nw is hardly belive that we such a small church wif so many youth we can rise to 10K...and i belive is still growing we are getting step by step closer to our dreams...God is realli amazing...even de vision we see is not realistic...but is actually happening nw...God is preparing for our vision...lets us go to higher ground together amen?

2006-06-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

todae wen for guitar lesson...well learn quite number of stuff...at first my teacher ask wat i wan to learn? scaling or solo? den i sae theory...haha he lyk quite shock leh...coz all his students dun lyk theory de...den im de onli one so interested in...haha...quite complicating at first he tot me all de intevals and major scales...but is quite easy wif u understand it...took me quite a long time to understand at first coz all de terms he use i never hear b4 de...haha...nw music theory to me is lyk maths haha got formula de...haha...but actually quite easy la...if u understand how it works...den he tot me basic scaling...is actually link to music theory...haha...nw i noe how it works liao...wen hme to try out...seems quite difficult leh...hav to memorise all de choromatic scales on my fret board...did try basic scaling....i rec dwn de rythem into my com den i try to scale...can la...but is lyk repeating itself...haha well guess is sumthing new to me...finally a new level of my skills haha waited for so long....haha well still figuring out de scaling...haha...

2006-06-18T19:52:00.000+08:00

wow it was indeed goin beyond my body limits last fri after my exams arnd 11am quickly rush home to pack my stuff for de 2 daes 1 nite cycling...den preapared my bike quicky cycle and meet up wif dem and zl hse dwnstairs we den cycle to shufu mart there eat lunch den set off we passby amk den to seragoon area den we reach one place very xtrem desserted but the place is realli very eye opening i never see all these things b4...we were cycling on de road which our 2 sides are all forest den we saw a temple wow...i realli cannot imagine how old is tat temple...is realli realli old...den after tat we cycle next to us was a very xtrem open field with to great big tower...and i din realise singapore got such a weird tower...is lyk a very huge bowl i mean realli huge and is supported by a pillar and is all grey in color...it cannot be a building coz there is no windows...is realli weird...den after tat we cycle out of de forest place den to highway...dem reach parsir ris park there...well it took us 3hr45mins constant cycle LOL....den reach there intend to jump into de beach after de real intense sweating...jux looking at de beach make us sian half...is jux so dirty den change our mind we wen to wild wild wet LOL...i guess jurong swiming complex is better den wild wild wet and is more cheaper...well after tat wen to bath den go walk walk at dwn town east wif our heavy bags...imagine cycle wif a heavy bag and nw walking wif it...was hunting for a place to watch world cup...den mange to find one...is lyk a open area cafe...the match was damm exciting i guess one of de FUNNIEST one oso...haha...i jux cant stp laughing...LOL...den after tat we wen walk walk...den continue our long cycle and we bought beers den find place in park pitch our tent and throw ourself inside...was damm late i guess it was morning liao....den we start to open up beers and play tai ti LOL...i din drink much onli drank 3/4 of a can...LOL...den after tat morning we continue to cycle...den wen back to downtown east there de swimming pool and swim...LOL...den after tat cycle all the way back hme...LOL was a intense one...damm tired liao...den still nvm wen reach hme still need to change and go service...by de time reach hme i realli K O liao...slept for more dwn 12hrs even nw i still feel tired...haha...

din realli touch guitar for arnd a week or two...spent my time at hme playing guitar todae...i jux dunnoe y i keep on playin non stp haha...guess is i long time never play le ba...haha...i modify de song An jing haha...find it quite cool LOL....haha...still writing de new song wif Edmund...got sumthing new to add on nw...haha...

find my guitar suddenly sound so nice haha...guess must be de sillica gel i added...it sounds so bright and sweet haha...jux cant stp playing nw...my holi are finally here realli still dunnoe wat am i goin to do wif it...last time got so much things to do during holi...nw totally dunnoe wat to do...haha...btw i jux got another new testi to share haha shall not share it here...leave for de next cell haha...

2006-06-11T21:24:00.000+08:00

sumthing happen todae shall not share it here...guess will leave it for this thur cell de testi sharing...well...wen to guitar lesson...den after wen to edmund hse wif yan zhi...we were jamming at his hse...haha wrote a song with edmund...i find it very very nice...i guess we shall name it "Our First Touch"...is realli a nice song...i realli wan to play tat song again...is lyk got de feel...well we wrote de intro, verse and de chorus...still havent think of de ending yet...for u guys info before i go my tag board is below...scroll all the way dwn

2006-06-09T14:01:00.000+08:00

ok i noe this template sux...but for the time being...not realli in de mood to design a new one..no inspiration haha....nah partly is i lazy la...okok my grandfather jux land in to hospital for operation...he got cancer in his liver...i heard de operation is quite serious...jux nw wen i was busy the HolySpirit keep on prompting me to speak in tounges...so i jux did wat He told me..guess sumthing good must be happeing soon...well wenever the Holyspirit call me to speak in tounges sumthing good always happen...okok shall talk abt camp...well the camp was indeed a good one...my spirtual growth is once again been renewed by the power of God...my life was ignited by the Holyspirit once again...the camp was good opportunity for to get closer to those hu i not very close to...well is plan of God...the encounter during camp is a powerful one...is been a long time since i really encounter until lyk tat...haha...okok wen to davis...well overslept todae miss my sch plus my common test...haha...well wat can i do...din hear de alarm clock...but the time i woke up was already 12 pm...sch dismiss liao...haha...was very very xtremly tired la...well...dun wish to sae much...CONFIDENTIAL!...haha...shall becareful of most posting liao...guess i shall be puttin psw for my next new blog...well still considering la...find my skill in guitar improve in sum ways...well is a breakthrough again...i guess im getting elec guitar soon...well i starting to save for it...nw within 1week i save up to 100bucks liao...guess i can get within less den 2mths...haha...well...tat was fast...haha...i dunoe am i getting 400bucks frm my busery mah this june...haiz...im still waiting for it...once i got tat plus my savings....im goin to get both elec and acostic at de same time...haha....guess tat will be impossible...my MUM will kill me for sure...haix...haha...at hme already got 2 guitars liao...plus another 2 she is goin to kill me...well....i still thinking shld i get plugin acostc guitar or elect guitar...u see sooner or later i will be playing on stage...and i need a plugin acoustic guitar...and i oso wan to learn elec guitar...and i can only buy one which one shld i choose? grrrr....i hate ironic situations...grrr....goin to hospital at 3 later to see my grandfather...well...haix...oso dunnoe wat to sae la...jux bought united we stand the CD...okok is nice...i strongly recommed this CD...haha .... i wan to learn RIFF and FINGERSTYLE....i mastering de basic scaling nw...almost got it...yes...guess need few more daes...BHAHA!!!...i wan to to play ELEC GUITAR....

2006-05-27T00:42:00.000+08:00

too much neagative respond comin to my mind...is drving me nuts...ARGH!!...can i hav peace for a sec...daes are goin jux to fast...it mayb slow to others...but i find it too fast...things change...was actually looking back to my time wen im in sec sch...miss all de time there...even i dun quite lyk quite a number of ppl there...but i still miss de time wen i wif my frens...de gang of frens tat i always mix wif...ya even we still get in contact every nw and den..but we dun hav de chance to see each other everyday lyk we use to do...haha...we share lame jokes together...laugh out with all we have...LOL...was so memorable...at least nw life is still not bad...my class nw in ite is at least better den last yr...i dun lyk my class last yr...i cant communicate wif dem at least after de class shuffer...which is nw...is alot time better...i lyk my class nw...i find tat dey are very united...and active bunch of ppl...haha...at least God shows His grace to me...at least is realli better den last yr...i hav to a loner...coz i realli cant communicate wif dem...2 different world ppl...nw...at least i start to get influence by den not in de negative way but more to postive way...i start realli hang out wif dem...i think im more likely to hang outside compare to church nw....i feel tat i not very active in my minstry not cell guitarist i mean... dun get de wrong idea....mistry lyk serving and stuff dunnoe how to explanin...i think sumthing is wrong wif my spirtual growth...i feel tat is abit dead nw...not tat i totally dun feel anything...is lyk...haix...dunnoe wat to sae...i feel tat im getting more and more not involed in church stuff liao...is lyk im more sticking to de outside world...is very different frm last time...i feel a distance between me and God...de fact is i feel myself very resitricted in my life nw in church compare to last time....i have to do things on other ppls way...i cant hav my own freedom to do things tat i wan to do...and it ended up i have de wrong Mentality of doing things...i nw hav de Mentality of doin it for de sake of doin it not for God anymore...i have been hinding this for quite sumtime...there still things tat hidden beneath me....hav been asking do i wan to be a leader?...infact i din realli think abt it b4...until few daes ago...do i hav de intention to becme one?...im realli confuse...i oso dunnoe y am i in this lev which im in nw...is lyk i suddenly awake frm a deep slp and realise y am i here...wat de hack am i doin???...i dun hav de intention to go until so far which im already in nw...i realli still thinking am i qualified? to becme one...im realli pondering...i admit for nw my Mentality of servin is wrong i admit tat...i used to hav a Mentality of serving for God...nw my Mentality totally changed....wat has happen to me nw...i feel happy and glad after serving each minstry last time...nw i dun realli feel a single thing...im goin thru a tuff spirtual warefare nw....every single sec of my life nw i can hear satan talking to me...all de neagetive reply...i cant get rid of it...and nw im trying very very hard to change back my Mentality...tml im goin to meet Tobias early...i hope is goin to be a breathroug for me...a chance for me to change my Mentality...talk to one of de person tat came to de bbq de other time on de fone todae...we talk for more den 2hrs...and 2hrs on msn did lots of catch up...trying to get him to church tml oso...

i feel myself not very understanded by others...i realli realli always try to understand others...but did dey realli try to understand me...NO!...i hav my own limitation oso....

the song for cell is doin fine nw...i mange to get all 3 of de songs...is a new level of breakthrough nw...coz i never play all this songs b4...i think is a breakthrough...

2006-05-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

hey back to bloggin...haha dun worry this will not be a long one compare to de last post...okok well im goin to be dammm busy in june...first is Ignite camp, Next is 2 days 1 nite cycling trip Next is my class chalet....haha...damm excitied...haha coz every week in june i will be goin og camp and chalets...haha...1st week is ignite 2nd week is 2 dae 1 nite cycling trip...3rd week is class chalet...well de class chalet de date is not fix...mayb on july....haha todae was Miss Jalna bdae...dunnoe how to spell...haha...den our class celebrate for her...so was actually having lesson was MCT prac lesson...den we actually plan b4 hand...so we actually intend to sabo her...haha...even Miss Gay our class advisor oso wif us...so we bought cakes...tat Youshan la...buy 2 cakes for $$$120...damm ex... loh...den de cake is lyk make of pure gold lyk tat...den after tat we all go prepare powder...actually wan to sabo Miss Jalna de...den in end dun hav...coz she wear until very nice...den instead we sabo miss gay...haha she tot she was wif us...den we whole class take powder and chase her...haha...den we were all running about in sch...den she ran into one of de lab...and lock herself inside...den she tot we cant get her...den she keep doin tat funny face at de window on de door de...den she din realise tat de door very easy to break open...haha....den we break open de door den she was lyk dammm shock loh...den we throw powder at her...wah lau...u can see de whole place all powder...den u can see de very thick poweder smoke...imageine a class of 40++ ppl whole hand grab wif poweder den throw together...haha...den we actually make a mess in tat lab....den de lab asst ran out wif de face damm black...LOL...but we still dun care...den we all aim Song Hui...de whole class start to chase him...ppl tot we siao all wat...so many ppl with hand full of powder chasing one guy LOL....den we run around de whole school...LOL...den i ran until siao...den my pants almost drop LOL lucky i manage to pull up b4 it drop...den we lost sight of him...den we lyk seaching for him loh...den section head walk pass us damm funny...we put our hand inside our shirt LOL...he lyk huh wat we doin LOL....den we wen back to de lab...was a big mass...haha den can see de lab asst dammm angry LOL...den he go complain...to section head...haha even Miss gay side us...haha...so de section head is goin to see us tml i think?...haha...LOL...nxt dey are goin to aim me and you cai and mark...coz our bdae is together...haha...we are jux so dead....LOL...

de comin cell songs abit quite challenging for me...coz de songs all is i never play b4 de...haha well a new chance for me to learn 3 new songs...manage to get 2 of it...onli left 1...actually i can get tat one de...is onli de toopid pause part...i cant get it...well still got time...haha...hope God will shine upon me as im goin to bring glory to His name...

2006-05-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

hav been skiping meals lately...i can even dun eat for whole dae yet im still so full...guess sumthing is wrong wif me sum how...this comin June i think will hav lots of camp for me 1st is de Ignite camp, next i heard there is SJ camp and next is goin to be a camp with my grp of frens...haha ...the other time we cycle almost half of singapore and this time round we going to cycle i think more den a half of singapore and we are goin to camp over nite and den continue to cycle de next dae morning till we reach our destination...haha...well if u noe me very xtremly well u will noe tat im a sporty type of person...haha doesent look lyk rite?...haha well i dun play sports lyk bball or soccer...but i prefer xtrem sports lyk rocking climbing or any sports tat is related to heights or Adventures stuff esp thoese dangerous type...haha well not me rite? haha...i jux love de scary feeling we u are on top looking dwn...haha...well i join rock climbing in sch de other time...but i quit haha coz i jux hate de timing well...dun really hav de chance to enjoy de sports tat i lyk actually even i hav my mum will start naggin at me...haha...so seldom try it out...de last time i climb i think was about 3yrs ago...haha quite long rite...de first time i climb i think was P6...haha too bad i dun look tat sporty haha...so not many ppl realli noe tat i play this types of sports de...haha...nw u guys noe sumthing abt me rite...haha since young i love to climb i always climb at hme de...haha...frm one shelf climb to other shelf den frm there jump on top of de closet den jump on to my bed...haha not suprise tat i change my bed every nw and den last time...haha...since i seldom try de sports i lyk i end up slacking at hme last time...
haha...tat is wen i hav my first computer...den nth better to do...wen to explore around de computer...at first i explore de window 98... den slowly open up de system unit and explore around haha tat was wen i was sec1...well there is wen i start to fall in love in computer and IT stuff..haha...den start to experment with different parts...tat time i still dunnoe wat is wat..den anyhow pluck here and there...hha...den slowly i start to explore wif my dad...haha tat is wen i start to grow a stronger relationship wif him...and tat is still around sec1...or i think i jux finish PSLE...haha...den we together go buy lots of parts and i mean lots...den we go experment together...haha...den we every sat sure go simlim square or go library borrow books abt IT and stuff den we share our knowlege...tat is realli de time i realli start to hav a great relationship wif my dad frm de same passion and interest...till wen i was sec3 i was introuduce to photoshop by a fren of mine his a designer...i was using corel draw den...was totally amaze by his design...and the mircals of photoshop...tat was de time i start to pick up designing at first i design until realli lyk shit...den tat time i realli go and borrow books and learn...den master de formula...of which design...den slowly i start to fall in love wif web desining...create my own web...haha tat time i realli hate blog not tat i wat la...is lyk very no creativity loh is lyk take frm de blogskin.com and paste into blog...is lyk not sumthing personal tat u realli do out with ur own desire....den is lyk everyone got de same design...haha...no offends to blog user hor...tat was last time...haha so i dun use blog tat time...instead i use geocities as my hoster...tat time i experiment around wif HTML den slowly to java script den to CSS...haha...wen was sec4 i start to try out Flash...did not realli succed actually...onli manage to do simple 2D flash is a big achivement for me tat time...coz i totally master it on my own...so jux one day my com dwn den hav to format my com...all my photo design and webdesign all gone...tat was damm sad loh...or my yrs of hard work de experments all gone...well tat time totally lose intesrest liao...so end up becomin a heavy gamer i mean real heavy...i can spent 16hrs infront of com jux to play games...tat time i still using dial up internet very ex...so never play online games...so after i gradu i totally hav no aim in life and onli jux to play game...i start to slack alot...spent my whole holidays plaing game...din realli go out and work la...but after my ITE start...is lyk very slack...not interested wif anything...so until one day...i was walking in AMK central met...qiuling she pass be a flyer and she invited me to go for church big day...i was suprise den coz i lose contact wif her for quite sumtime...seldom meet...den i dunnoe y she suddenly lyk so into church and stuff...was quite suprise...haha...at tat time i pick up a job...as flyer distrubter...tat time i still remember i was attending a wedding dinner...den qiuling call me to call me go for bigday...i was reluctant at first coz i dun realli into church stuff...coz i backslide lots and lots and i mean lots of time since i was young....haha ya for your info...i was tricked to bcme christian wen i was K1 LOL...was thru out de yrs i backslide 1 mth cme back 2 weeks for more den 10yrs LOL...can imagine i backslide how many times...haha well i guess i backslide thruout de whole 10yrs coz i dun realli feel anything by de way i was frm a xtrem traditional church and most of dem are adults or small kids...LOL onli me and my cousing same age guess sum of u shld noe his Roman came to our church once...we were very xrtem close last time la...nw lose contact liao...oh ya back to topic...so qiuling call me to go big day i was very unwilling jux and another reason coz i hav to work at tat time and i dun think i can take off...coz my work place onli me giving flyer...den i jux dunnoe y suddenly sumthing make me call my boss and take leave so i jux call my boss suprisingly he gave me off as if is lyk nth lyk tat den i call qiuling tat im goin...so i wen to de bigday..with kitkeong guesss sum of u all noe hu issit...haha...well den we wen for big day den de big day is held in novena de conference room...well we wen there early...so me and kit keong and qiuling and my sis siting at de back...den first person tat came and talk to me was clement ng!....LOL...coz is still very early so he came and talk to me...he was sooooo coooooool loh...he was wearing de mic..dunnoe wat issit called...is a mic hook on de ear den got one thing infront of de mouth...haha...den he wear de black color jacket tat he usually wear...i still can remeber...den he came talking to me...we were talking abt sports haha...den talk abt NBA...LOL....so de bigday started i think was praise and worship was realli amazed by de praise and worship...coz i came frm a tratidtional church...din realise tat praise and worship is lyk soooo rockish type de...den is lyk u can feel de impact there...so next was drama...kim guang was acting at de time...my first impression is...HIS DAMM LOUD....LOL...ppl use normal talking he use shouting de...LOLs....den next is de alter call...i attend de altar call...haha...is lyk i there is sumthing telling me...this is de place u hav found...and this is de place of ur commitment...den i jux step out not knowing y oso...den i realise it was God tat spoke to me tat time...wow amazing rite....den after de service i still rember was Jason call me for John 3:16....de first question i still rember he ask me how was de event jux nw...i sae was great and i wan to commit to this church tat was jux b4 he wanted to share John 3:16...haha....power rite ppl havent share John 3:16 already got de intention to commint liao...is not me saeing tat is sumtthing make me to sae tat i noe is de work of de Holy Spirit....den de first time i join service...was very amaze by de praise and worhip and de preaching esp....is sooooo alot times millions time different frm my ex-tradtional church...so sumthing tells me...u hav found ur home...so tat time i was sitting at de back...for de next 2 or 3 service i still sitting at de back not realli commited at de time...so until one powerful service guess was de 4th or 5th time of me comin for de service...tat is de powerful part...my life was transform after tat service...wen peter ask for alter call...this is de time i realli walk out...my tears realli flow lyk open tab...den i knee dwn and start to cry hard non stop...all my guilt and pain for de past is realli erased...tat is wen i noe de true meaning of the old hav gone de new hav come...den if im not wrong is was praise songs...i jux dunnoe y after de alter call still got praise songs...i start to jump and shout for God...i guess i was de onli one infront of de stage jumping...tat is de time i realli jump with happiness inside...so frm de day on...i always lyk to jump alot for praise and worship...haha nw u guys noe y i lyk to jump alot rite...haha tat is one of de reason y?....so after frm tat dae...i start my life start to change same as de verse sae The old has gone de new has come...i start to pick all sorts of minstry frm big to small...or small to big...tat time i still remeber is was june holidays...i came to church almost everyday...den is either play drum and study with freda dey all...we hang out everytime tat time start to hav a close bond wif dem...dey are one of de first few tat we hav bond together since de time i join church...so we always hav jamming session...was very amaze by kg wen he play drum...den wen i start to try den i realise i got de passion for drums...haha...den so he teach me la...at tat time i realli very xtremly xtremly on fire for God...realli do all sorts of minstry...at tat time i realli admire thoese ppl on stage...i told myself one day i wan to get myself up there no matter wat it cause...tat is de biggest ultimate mistry tat i wan to join in my life...no matter how difficult it is i still wan to get to de mistry i wan...at tat time my aim is to be drummer on stage......u guys noe tat church got one classical guitar rite...so until one very very fine day i took out tat guitar and i start to lyk anyhow play i dunnoe anything abt guitar...at least i last time got abit of knowlege on drum...at least i still can play...but guitar is i totally got no knowledge abt it...so was anyhow playin...and tat is my very very first time touching guitar with tat classical gutiar....so be honored wen u touch tat guitar hor...LOL...so my first chord i learn was A, Em and D...was taught by chuting...tat time...den learn de basic strumming pattern...i keep on playin de same chord A, Em and D over and over again and again and again...wen ever i touch tat guitar i will play de same thing...over and over again...but tat time i still got great passion for drums...so i jux dunnoe y one day...within one day i lose all my passion for drums and all into guitar...its not me loh...im a person which wen i got passion for sumthing is very very hard for me to lose it...i jux dunnoe loh...den i start to hav passion for guitar at de time...even i do not hav de talent in it...but i jux keep on playing de same chords over and over again...play de same thing everytime...so join de church guitar class...start to hav even more passion for it...so until one day...in power while i was praying...God spoke to me...tat i will be a cell guitarist...and tat is de stepping stone for me...i was realli realli shock i hav never ever thought for becomin one...and God noes my goal is to serve Him on stage...His making my plans well....is creates all de plan so perfectly loh...He make me start frm small..as a cellguitarist nw...frm there is my real training ground...so i share this with peter and clement...i was realli shock wen God spoke to me...lyk tat...i guess tat was my first encouter wen God spoke to me...if im not wrong...so i stike for de aim of cell guitarist frm tat timeon...is was a realli realli realli realli long proecess for me to get to cellguitarist...i may hav talent...but God is providing it to me every step tat i take..example...wen i tat time i got difficult bare chords...i cant get it for weeks...all i did was pray and ask God to teach me how to...de next moment i can get it...wen i dunnoe how to play certain things for weeks i pray and ask God de next moment i got it...is lyk miricals...i pray and ask God for talent He din give me...nw i noe y coz we wans to teach me in every level i go thru...level by level bit by bit in a very detailed mode...it mayb a long process...but every level i go thru...beside learning de things tat i wan...i learn sumthing spirtual and physically....i may not been very xtrem spirtually matured...but i noe i hav grown spirtually matured compare to me last time wen i first step in to church....frm de long process of learning a instrument i grew spirtually matured bit by bit...even till nw....God is still teaching me...He has taught me for abt a yr since de time i touch guitar...june is comin....i marks de exactly one yr of me touching guitar is equals to a yr of walk of walking process with God...until nw i noe y God din give me de talent wen i realli ask for....He wans me to learn is a detailed process so tat i can not jux serve Him in my minstry and i oso gain spirtual knowledge...and plus God wans to teach me to be a patient person....is a combo...i learn lots and lots and gain lots and lots frm this xtrem long process...it mayb long but de pay off is huge...this i post is my longest post i ever wrote...long rite...well this onli de introduction...shall continue next time....this actully can sae is my life testimony...well hope frm this post u guys can noe more abt me....still got lots to continue actully...but my hands are tired nw...haha...shall continue de next time...

2006-05-19T02:29:00.000+08:00

i think i did quite well todae...but still got room for improvement...i noe i cock up in de plucking part...was actually closing my eyes den accidentally lose count of de bar....lucky was been save by de 2nd verse...for de praise songs i think is too soft...they sing louder den i play...esp de king of majesty even mee myself cant even hear wat im playing LOL...am i deaf or wat??...LOL...den i start to lyk wack abit hard coz i really cant hear wat im playing....LOL...so in order not to lose my beat i start to sing oso...den the worship song play until de highest peak tat time den din expect another round of repeating of chorus and i cannot pull up anymore coz im playin de highest peak liao...if i still wack it will sounds lyk..yucks...den end up substain tat lev...but if i play other key i think i still can wack coz i can mute de 6th strings den will not hav de buzzing sound...den todae cannot mute coz playing E key dun hav extra finger to mute 6th strings...but i noe got one methord de...nw im mastering nw...haha...is to place the tip of ur finger on de 6th string while u press on de 5th string...haha todae is really a learning experience do gain quite number of exprience todae...well should work hard for de next comin cell...nw i noe wat to watch out liao...haha...

2006-05-12T01:35:00.000+08:00

hav been praticing lately...i can see a slight improvement...but hav to sharpening it...not very use to the new way of playing...is lyk very weird...nw i hav to overcome stage fright...guess non of u guys actually noe tat i got stage fright...is quite bad actually...whenever i try to do sumthing tat requires skill i will tend to tremble and my hands and legs will becme stiff and the most funny thing is i will keep on shaking my leg alot esp wen i am standing...so guys hav to be paitient with me...haha...so to overcome this i jux hav to face it...participating unwind is realli taking me lots of courage to do so...haha..even i cant sing well but at least i gain experience in performing...hav been experimenting on different ways of playin for different songs...quite intersting actuall...din realise tat u can realli use ur creativity to play and modify a song...haha...after i hav master my finger stlye im goin to buy elect guitar...haha guess shld be time...but not tat soon...i think shld be around this comin dec?...well depends which level i am in nw...but i think will be soon...coz i can see improvement nw...after so long...LOLs....imagine using elect guitar to play for cell...hey i seen ppl doin tat...is jux so cool!...the atmosphere is realli different...wif elect guitar...esp in enclose area...

have a great time todae...cell outreach event at sylvia's hse...find thoese guys tat quite potential...after mixing wif dem...dey are very friendly...haha...i jux love the chicken wing and the satay is sooo damm nice...manage to get quite a number of potential souls...wow this is de first time we do such event and got so much potential ppl....indeed outreach is a tiring job...but no pain no gain rite?...at least i get a chance to see different types of ppl...haha...praying hard tat thoese ppl will go to unwind this comin sat...argh! im still hungry i wan tat chicken wing...todaes posting is rather long i think?...well i still havent end the post yet...

God is showing me grace...things in my life start to change...i start to mix well wif ppl in my sch...at least we get to noe each other better...hav a great talk with my bro the other night...we really discuss on our family matter...at least we got a better chance to noe each others needs and doubts...i can start to understand a little in class nw...at least better den im totally lost rite?...haha...my finiacial is reovering nw...even thu i still got a $160 internet bill havent pay...guess i shld hlp my bro a little in his bills...this is wat family are for rite?...even thu my life is lyk not goin well sum sort lyk "SWAY" in almost everything...not tat i belif in luck is lyk sum sort lyk very sway...not jux once or twice is lyk lots of times...but i guess im happy with tat...God is testing my paitents...starting to overcome stage fright even thu i still hav a long way to go...but i see a little little improvement...i guess nw i can play at least a little better in cell nw...jux tat i need a long period of warm ups....

mayb my guitar teacher is comin to church and teach...its still not confirm yet...but i guess is realli a blessing thru me to this church...im quite happy abt it...is lyk is so rare to find such a proffesional hu can teach praise and worship in such a price is realli a blessing...im realli blessed by this teacher...he is realli realli a very very nice person...his not tat kind of teach liao take money den go tat type de...he realli tat kind make sure tat u noe...he oso dun mind dragging de lesson for additional 1 or 2 hrs to teach me more stuff...even i cannot catch all...he will still take up 1 or 2 hr additonal to teach me de next week...even i still dun understand a certain thing he dun mind teaching me online on msn...he jux soooo coool!!!.....he oso posted a web for online learning and is free..... selftaughtguitarist.net ...go check it out de videos online...

next cell is comin soon...is realli a great challenge for me to face my fear...i jux hate to play infront of ppl...but i still hav to overcome it to go to the next level...I WILL OVER COME!!!.....GET LOST U BLOOODY SATAN!!!!.......dun let me see u again...or else i will pluck off ur horns on head and stuff it into ur nosetrails and pluck off ur tail and stuff it in to ur left ear and cme our frm the right ear...and i will break the front 2 long teeth...i will make sure i use de D&T file ...and file off ur teeth...i will will peel off ur skin and dye is blue instead of red....too bad i will not give up tat easy...stp telling me to give up!!....i will not too badd!!!

2006-05-07T01:22:00.000+08:00

did not played well for the last cell...well i should take failure as a learning point...as least i noe where the prob lies nw...working hard on it...at least i nw got 3 weeks for me to get preapared this time...i bet i will play even better de next time...had been praticing frm a very xtreme slow tempo and soft volume wif metro for praise songs for days... all using wrist instead of my hand...not quite use to it coz hav been using hand instead of wrist to play last time...quite hard...hav to relax my wrist and hand to play...den my pick keep on flying here and there...have to build my basics damm well b4 i can go to other lev...in order to play fast well u must play slow well....sooo i goin to start frm the slowest tempo...this time i will suceed...and for my worship song hav been trying to get the rite temp of 72...hav been playing 76 last time....is hard to unscrew and re screw again...well guess my afford will pay off well...with great determination cme greater success

2006-04-30T00:08:00.000+08:00

i quite fed up liao...i jux dun wish to sae it here...im very very tired i need a break frm everything...y everywhere i go things always happen...i hav enough of my own probs...nw new prob comin up...CAN SUMONE HERE ME I CANT BREATH!!!!!.....totally no one understands how i feel nw...y ppl is taking me for nth...i was jux being nice...i felt very very pressurize wen i talk to him...i jux dun lyk de way he approach me...is lyk i dun feel comfortable loh...y im doin things tat im not happy with....its making me a entertainmer...it totally not MYSELF...y ppl can express dem self FREELY...Y CANT I!!!!...IM OSO A HUMAN BEING...i hav too much to keep inside me...and im goin to STUFF to death!!...I CANT BREATH!...i already hav enough of my own personal probs...y things hav to add on....u ask me moneny is lyk so easy...wen i ask u back is lyk i OWE u thousand bucks...wat is this!!!...i noe u did alot to this family and i appreactiate it...but u oso must think tat not jux u need money i oso need leh...!!!....i din ask back alot frm u noe mah!!!....with u wan ppl to understand u y cant u simply understand ppl first...i noe mummy nags everytime but can u talk to her nicely??? even sumtimes i talk to her but i noe my limits i still obey wat she call me to do!!...and daddy cannot take anymore impact liao...can u see his health situation nw!!!????.....u noe wat happen to him wen u in taiwan????!!!....i was afraid tat i may lose my father at tat time u noe tat???!!!.......................I HAV ENOUGH OF MY OWN PROBS LIAO...i jux wan to find a place to hav a break frm it...but wenever i go THOUSANDS OF PROB POP IN TO ME!!!....IM VERY VERY SICK AND TIRED LIAO.....

CAN ANYONE HEAR ME I CANT BREATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

haha my favorite guitarist...Steve vai one of the best few guitarist in the world...one of the most sexy guitarist...haha looks abit lyk Clement Ng oso....before watching press the stop button ur your window next to the refresh button to stop my current background music....to hav the best view kindly scroll the it to ur preference...coz his finger style is nice

2006-04-24T13:28:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im goin CRAZY CAN SUMONE HERE ME!!!!....GRRRR....I CANT GET IT SHIT IT SOUNDS LYK SHIT!!!!!

2006-04-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

Im lost in the way im walking, I feel the weight pulling me down, thousands of voices surrounding me with negative respond, in the mist of total darkness I see my self falling apart frm the loving one...far far apart...isolated alone from the crowd...wandering around in the place u totally cant see...blinded by the voices that u cant hear...in split seconds thousands of burning needles penetrates into every edge of my skin my heart was melted by the extreme heat...I totally lost the sense of touch...I cant feel a thing...I forgotten what is love...isolated alone no one hears me and sees me...I totally cant see a thing is so dark that I cant see my hands...hidden with fear beneath me...a place where is totally unknown to me...a place without hopes and future...a place with sorrows and pains hidden by the past...guilt filled into me as my memories flashes into my mind...my sword shattered into pieces, my shield splited into half...im totally exhausted from battle...i fell onto the ground...surrounded by critics, every word of them penetrates like a sword pierce into your heart...closing my eyes about to give up my hope...out from no where the sound of war Trumpet was blown...the moment I open my eyes...I saw myself lying on the clouds with thousands of angels surrounding me...I can see light from the sun as its horizontal to the clouds...a voice of assurance answered me "I have Come" ...seated up right I saw thousands of angels marching into the battleground with the sound of trumpet blown...the darkness retreated...earthquake shattered throughout the whole battleground the unfruitful perish beneath the earth...the demons burned into ashes...the dirt and muddy ground turns into large green patch of grass, the fallen trees turns into a fruitful tree...life starts to take place as the river flows between the banks...sweet pleasant aroma from the flowers brings out the freshness of the earth...bird singing on tree top creates a new song or praise...as the deer pants for water in the river it creates new life into the living...Lord was watching over me all along I din notice a thing, He came to me with the help with His hands...The moment I hold His hands I feel the closeness with Him like a child had found his Father after a long period of lost...

Catch no Ball haha is a piece of art LOL! This is actually a description on how God hit into my life...

2006-04-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

Shall blog abt yesterdae...wah! XIONG! yesterdae me,yz,zl,et wen cycling frm thomson to esplande den to east coast....we met around 10.30am lyk tat at zl hse dwn stairs coz zl and et borrow bike frm him mah...den i cycle frm my hse to zl hse dwn stairs...dwn was planing the route with the map wif dem den go eat breakfast...den after tat we go off...was quite "SONG" coz the weather is good den we cycle frm thomson to Novena there den after frm there go Sim Lim square den to Raffles Hotel den to Esplande wah we took 1h30mins to reach there...quite fast actually...den rest at marina park there...den after plan de route to east coast...wah tat one XIONG ar...we look at the map is lyk short distance to us...den actually was not loh...den we start to cycle again...at first we tot Nicoll highway rebuild le mah after so long den tat was the shortest cut...den we were lyk cycling everywhere jux to look for Nicoll lol..den end up cannot find haha...but was quite interesting coz we got a chance to see things tat we never seen b4 haha...i din expect tat singapore realli got such damm old building loh...den after tat we stp and re plan...this time go by kallang road...kaoz tat was a long one....so we cycle for 45mins jux to find kallang road...dammit den after tat we saw de sign board kallang road...wah finally reach...but not yet end we need to go all the way straight to find still road....kaoz another long distance den cycle loh...may seems tiring but quite fun coz is different frm cylcing on road and in park...park is lyk so dead and boring but road is more exciting loh...different atmosphere de feel...den after tat we took another 30mins to find still road...is lyk wah finally...den we cylcle thru the under pass den to east coast park...den after tat we go eat mac...coz too hungry liao...den after tat we cycle to jetty...den we suddenly got a very weird weird de feeling coz we use to cycle on road liao den nw in park very weird...haha...is lyk no "KICK" to us...den is lyk so dead and boring haha...den after reach jetty..den after tat we all jump into the sea and swim haha...toopid zl act cool siao dun wan to cme dwn...wan to see chio bu issit?? haha...den after we build tall tall de sand castle den we play "GUN BOUND" with cococnut haha lame leh...den i throw the coconut until mid air den almost landed on zl haha lucky he saw it and ran away frm it...haha...lame la...haha...den after tat quite late liao den we all cycle back to the nearest shower den go there bath...den after tat plan the route to go back wah...this is worst...haha...we plan the fastest way...but sway sway wen we cycle den we realise we choose the wrong route coz all goin up hill de...den we lyk wah kao...den until one part very "SONG" i think is at paya lebar there...the whole long stretch of road is go dwn hill de...wah den we cycle den we charge all the way dwn haha...den after tat we saw bishan...den cycle to RAffles JC there...wah tat one oso tiring siao coz goin up hill de...den after tat reach thomson...wah den rest...den talk talk here and there den after tat go hme...

2006-04-10T16:24:00.000+08:00

ok my 2nd blog of de day...im jux simply DEAD BORED!!!...stuck at hme argh!....i always wanted to hav holiday yet nw how i wish i dun...grrr!! hav been praticing tat new strumming thing i jux cant get it loh...sum time can get it sum time dun...hav been praticing for weeks liao grrr!!!...shit la sick and tired...can sumone motivate me to move on!!....argh!....wen to st22 jux nw eat lunch alone den go den see got any biycle shop coz i wan to buy inner tube...den there dun hav wen to J8 there...and the sign board saes "MONDAY CLOSED" dammit grrr!!!...waste my trip den wen to porpula to buy map...dammit so ex sia 8bucks leh....find a pair of converse shoes quite nice...thinking of getting tat one tml...learn few new things yesterdae...my teacher taught me how to play de counter melody beat for the song Salvation is here...quite cool...den he tot me how to play power chords and muted palms plus snare beat kaoz looks so coooool!! but damm HARD loh...wah lau i always snare at de wrong beat GRRR!!!!....

2006-04-10T09:42:00.000+08:00

finally cme back to blogging...was damm busy this few days now finally holiday liao...all my projects done liao...onli wait for sch re open to present...siao leh presentaion at least 20mins...wah!!! kao!!!....nvm...lots of things happen too lazy to say also...this whole will be busy outside haha....need to go shopping for lots of stuff liao...im not goin to waste this holiday away....im goin to ikea again to get my new com table...my table nw lyk goin to collaspe anytime liao...thinking of getting peter the study room tat type looks so cool!....but quite ex leh....wow! i din realise i wake up so early todae without de hlp of my alarm clock haha...first time...my room nw is dammmmm messssy!!....oso lazy to clean up haha....jux cant wait to see how jaclyn look lyk tml haha...oh ya need to buy lots of stuff tml guess i will be broke den haha....haha gtg i havent brush my teeth yet

2006-03-20T19:35:00.000+08:00

This Posting will Be a release of my anger....so if ur not comfortable with Vulgarities please reframe urself frm highligthing the bottom...

WHO THE FUCK DO U THINK YOUR AR!!!!!!...YOU THING U VERY CLEVER MEH....HUH...THINK YOU VER PORPULA AR???...THINK UR GPA 4.0 VERY GOOD LIAO MEH...HUH!!!!!....FUCK UR ASS LA KA NI NA CHEEY BYE FUCKER BAGALA ASSLESS ROTI PRATA....STP ACTING PRO INFRONT OF ME LAAA!!!! U KNN...AND U HAV NO RIGHTS TO JUDEGE ME THIS WAY LOH....IS UR DE ONE ACTING SMART INFRONT OF EVERYONE DUN SAE ME LOH....I DIN NOT LOH....IF I ACT PRO I WILL NOT EVEN ASK QUS DURING CLASS LOH AND BE SO ATTENTIVE LOH....STOOOOOP SHOWING OFF LA....U THINK U GPA 4.0 VERY GOOD ARR...FUCK UR ASSS LAAAA!!!!! GO HOME EAT DUNG LA....STP ACTING TAT U PLAY DOTA VERY GOOD LOH...U AREEEE SUCH A NOOOOB LOH....FUCKERR CHEEYBYE....U NOE ALOT OF PPL BAD MOUTH U MAH....AND U STILL THINK TAT UR SO PRO LOH......EAT SHIT LAAA...U FUCK ASSS.... __ I NOE U BAD MOUTHING ME LAAAA HOR...DUN ACT INNOCENT LA...FUCKER CHEEYBYE...GOT GUTS SAE INFRONT OF ME LAAAAA!!!!!!!!..... DUN THINK YOU GOT ALOT OF FRENS HOR.......THEY ARE THE SAME AS U LOH....SHIT ASSSESS....FUCK UR ASS KA NI NA CHEE BYE FUCKER BAGALA....AND BTW FUCK U LA STARHUB....

2006-03-19T17:19:00.000+08:00

God spoke to me recently...and showing me lots of signs and giving me assurance....and things is nw running smoothly...mircials after miriclas happen...even the impossible became possible...God had indeed lighten my burdern...and reminded me tat He is still God the Lord tat reigns...many signs happen in my life...and is God trying to tell me sumthing again?? the word Light and Salt and the amour of God hav been appearing in my life for daes...God is ineed telling me to be the Light and Salt and wearing the amour of God in school..so tat i can outreach ppl in my sch...hmmmm....God already sent sumone to hlp me in my sch...which i am suppose to tag with tat person to outreach...and his a commited Christian hu wans to outreach my classmate...haha...God oso remind me to wear the amour of God...i guess He is tryin to tell me to get prepared for critize in school...i belif is goin to be a touch journey...i shall get myself preapred...is goin to be a breakthrough in my life once again

2006-03-14T21:49:00.000+08:00

walk one step see one step is tat wat i can do??? i will be useless if i cant do anything....wat can i do? jux sit around and wait for it to happen????.....tat will be useless of me...den wat is the purpose of having tat role...if i cant do a simple thing....i already hav lots of probs of my own...tml is MCT Phase test and im not preapared i die die must get A....or else i stand no chance in poly...shit...i realli hav no eyes to see....i wan to get out of singapore ASAP...i dun to see too much or noe too much...it jux hurt me or stressing me up...and i totally can sense satan is up to no good...and jux todae my eyes got swallon...and got slight of sign and symtom of flu....is de real battle goin to begin or is jus de introudtion.....satan is goin to push me dwn with all he hav....i shall stand firm in the LORD....jux few weeks ago he make me so guity tat i dun even there to face God...but in the end i manage to overcome it....this is jux de start...more will be comin... this is goin to be a breakthrough in my life once again.......

Father in Heaven if You hear my prayers, be sure to guide upon me as i goin thru difficult times....may You show me the light of Your glory in times of need, may You remind me tat You are God the Lord when im down with diffiult situation...as i walk the path along with You, You will remove all obstuction tat cmes towards me and showing me tat You are my God my Lord....and make me stand firm in Your name...and be proud tat You are my Father in Heaven and not letting critize to make me lose faith or denined You...as Lord You hav set trails in my life not to let me to be defeated and lose...but to show me how You defeat de evils one with Your mighty bare hands and gain victory in the end....even my shield is been shattered or my sword is been broken remind me tat You shall be my Fortress and my Tower....May The Mighty Lord be in me....Amen

2006-03-13T18:36:00.000+08:00

currently playing de background music is my favorite song "Run" by Snowpatrol...quite a meanginful song...the bottom is de lyrics of tat song

RUN-Snow Patrol

I'll sing it one last time for youThen we really have to goYou've been the only thing that's rightIn all I've doneAnd I can barely look at youBut every single time I doI know we'll make it anywhereAway from hereLight up, light upAs if you have a choiceEven if you cannot hear my voiceI'll be right beside you dearLouder louderAnd we'll run for our livesI can hardly speak I understandWhy you can't raise your voice to sayTo think I might not see those eyesMakes it so hard not to cryAnd as we say our long goodbyeI nearly doLight up...Slower slowerWe don't have time for thatAll I want is to find an easier wayTo get out of our little headsHave heart my dearWe're bound to be afraidEven if it's just for a few daysMaking up for all this mess

2006-03-11T02:14:00.000+08:00

what is the most painful and disappoinment thing in ur life??....hav u guys ever think of it b4?...well for me the most painful thing and biggest disappoiment is not getting sumthing tat u realli realli work hard for...esp wen others can jux simply get it without any much work needed...well it may seems nth to u....but is a huge impact to me...there are ppl saeing tat my thinking is far tooo complicated...but actually de fact is not...after pondering what the invited speaker preach on the stage during valentine...the thing tat hit me is de 5 type of showing love...i was realli pondering for weeks which 5 am i...and i nw i finalli noe which type i am...well if u wan to noe too bad u hav to find out urself ba haha...dun sae me very bad la the most i give u hint la...the type of love tat i need is either kill me or hlp me depends on the way u do it....haha...catch no ball????...well THINK!!!!...tat is wat brains are for...haha...you guys must find me weird y im bloggin such stuff...well, cause i can sense tat i mayb goin to lose sumthing in life...mayb is sumthing good? well im preapared i guess....i jux hav too much weird weird feeling in me...issit a sign frm God?...hmmmm

2006-03-09T13:10:00.000+08:00

am i over sensitive or wat?...feeling so shitty nwadaes....totally lost...im feeling so guilty for wat i done...haix...i jux cant get over it...i had enough of it liao...can i jux let go?...im sickening sick...i jux need life...argh!! when to celebrate lau da de bdae yesterdae with the 5 for us...wen to TAKA de seoul garden there loh...we eat all MEAT!!....eat until sickening sick...den we to my hse play PS2...okok i admit i realli not in good mood nwadaes...i have totally no comments of it...jux feeling myself sooooooooo freaking useless totally opposite from my dad loh...i realli throw off all my family de face liao loh...i feeling so guilty for all the stuff i done in life...i jux need life.....i shld not think so much instead i shld look at the blessing i have already...am i asking too much in life??...im so blessed nw but what if within one fine day it jux disappear and gone...i jux cant imagine....so at least i learn sumthing new todae "Cherish What You Have Now"....i jux need a break...i will be goin over to China for 2weeks to 3 weeks soon around in april...so dun miss me...erm i guess u guys will be even more happy not to see me....

2006-03-05T13:41:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh!!!! im rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting im rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting im rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting im rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting im rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting rotting....arrgh is damm bored at hme nw me alone...suppose to hav guitar lesson de den todae lesson postpone grrrrrrrrr!!!!....im dead bored nth better to do nw...spam my blog....everyone is so busy and i so bored alone at hme...arrrrrrrr jux cant stand it liao...can sumone hear MEE!!! IM ROTTING!!!!!.....so dead bored loh...oso dunnoe wat to eat for lunch and dinner nobody pei me...at hme oso nth to eat...haix...argghh!!!!...so dammm bored jux cant stand it played my ps2 liao...play until sian...den wack guitar until hand got blister liao...still nth to do...my com no more online games liao...ARRGH!!! i tink i shall stare at de wall blanky and stone there till night...and nw is onli 1.47pm nia....and im already so dead bored liao....

2006-03-03T19:50:00.000+08:00

todae wen to watch final destination wif de 4 of dem...wah damm violent loh..u can see de head disapper den de brain pop out of de head plus de body cut into half...eee damm violent loh...we bought pop corns and we dun dare to eat loh...i bet wen u watch u sure dun dare to eat oso de loh...de most worst de part is de part where de 2 gals kana burn alive...wah lau summore is slow death leh...den u can see their skin is lyk wah lau...den still got one part is lots and lots of long long needles poke in to de back of de head and cme out frm de face...eeee...so disgusting loh....dun wan to talk abt it liao...bet tonite sure will hav nightmare de...haha...todae 5 of ur intend to plan a cycling trip around half of singapore during my holidays on april...nw need to set tune my bike liao change setting de suspension lighter haha...was so looking forward to...long time never hav such a real cycling experience liao...haha...i tink shld be around 2yrs le ba...wen to PS de Yahama non of de guitar there interest me haha...is all so high action haha...and all de models quite old liao...so old until i tink my everson is better den dem loh...i rember got quite a number of new guitar came out in yahama but i never see any leh and i noe got a few guitars there quite good but haha too bad it dun interest me...onli blueridge or maestro can realli satisfy me haha...jux found out my strings started to rust badly...haha...at least it lasted for 1mth for such a heavy user lyk me...this prove tat maestro coated strings are good haha....wen this time i wan to try JR long life...but is damm ex...haha...

2006-02-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

wen to see guitars yesterdae...got a few selection do realli interest me...nw i got 3 brands in mind...either maestro, cort of blueridge...haha...i tink most prob will get blueridge...the sound is so Heavenly nice loh...i heard tat its design for worship in church de...haha but the thing bad is it will not tat nice wen i play fast songs...next is maestro...is not bad too...i lyk de low action...is so low loh...even its low de sound quality is there...wow...next is cort...its cheaper and sounds nice...good in size too..haha... so many choice to chose frm...haha...can slowly go see...anywae i oso intend to buy end of this yr or mayb next yr haha...okok its seems tat after yesterdae playin im jux so tempted and addicted of guitars liao haha...hav been wacking de whole dae todae...haha... hav been trying de stuff my teacher taught...i can get it but not to tat perfection la...haha will keep on practicing on tat...but i got prob with de effects...i always add the effects on de wrong beat...shit...i din realise tat king of majesty is jux sooo simple to play till my teacher show me...haha...hav been brain storming wat to do with my room haha...i wan to find a coner and make it a QT and jamming coner haha...so cool loh...but it dun seems to hav a coner to do tat...coz my room no space liao haha...so limited...sian tml is phase test haix...den wed is MCT theory test den fri is C&IE theory test...wah so many test this week...todae tried de C&IE trail test...is so difficult loh...wah lau...so many qus i onli lyk noe how to do a few nia...summoe tat paper is easier den de actual test leh...shit la...i jux sooooo dead loh......

2006-02-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

hav not been sleeping well for the past few days...todae first Time tat toopid teacher tat debar me one Mr Ku let so go early leh...wah...the whole class is lyk wahh!!!...coz tat teacher very law by law one...he let us go early for break and oso go hme early summore is damm early loh...i think partly is mood not good la...kana heat up out class attiude..haha...okok den when...bath then have my sweetest nap...wah...is jux so nicceee loh...long time never sleep untill so well liao...k den wake up intend to play PS2 de den my father using Teevee den end up wacking my guitar...haha...i can see my dymanics improve by a little after controling my volume up and dwn...haha...and nw is onli tat toppid muting of chord thing...grrr...i can get it de...but wen i start to change chord its seems like stuck there loh den dun hav de sound...idiot...actually not much thing happen todae...blog of de sick of blogging onli haha...later goin to Power House...

2006-02-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

backk to blogging...hav been praticing tat chord mutting thing...wah!! very tiring leh...my fingers are goin to break liao...den i try to fit in with the rythem is almost there but is lyk still abit weird weird de coz my mutting not good enough la...idiot hate to mute de B chord loh...very mafan loh...got so many strings to mute...hav been motivated by quite alot of designers nwadaes...do realli tinking of goin back to desiging haha...long time never realli do webby liao...of tinking of doing one nw...but onli no time nia...haha...all my time nw into guitar praticing the finger thing and de chord mutting thing...see quite alot of improvement in my skills compare to 5mths ago...haha realise this wen i hear my old recording which i record in my com... it sounds lyk so suxxx loh haha...quite motivated to move on oso after hearing it haha...is been a long time since i touch my PS2...is lyk rusting liao...haha...spent to much time with Everson liao haha...

2006-02-20T20:02:00.000+08:00

was practicing the chords tat my teacher taught me the other time...was quite difficult need to mute lots of strings de...at least nw i can get it but not that perfect...at least God show His grace to me my test all postpone to next week...at least tats sound better...and i mange to found back my favorite pick which i lost it few days ago...at least there is sumthing good happening in my life nw...believe my days are blessing are coming back...at least God hears my cry...thinking of changing the position of my furniture in my room...but dunnoe wat to do with it...nw i goin to save money to get a new guitar and change the out look of my room...shit nw i just realise i need a cca in order to gradu frm my sch...and dammit i dun hav one...i jux quit my guitar cca..coz is lyk sux....and nw i dunnoe y i so tempted to go back...idiot...i hate to bring my guitar all the way from my house to school...is lyk damm far and the transportation is so crowded loh...thinking of joining archery haha...guess im too short to shoot...haha...jux realise todae tat my bro jux flew to Australia without my family knowing...idiot loh...wen he flew the time den he let us know idiot rite... and now im addicited to coke liao...i must drink before i slp loh or else i realli cannot slp...haha....

2006-02-19T18:16:00.001+08:00

Found lots of comfort from the song A Pure Heart yesterdae, I just found lots of assurance from the song lyrics. It really hit into my heart and now im despo for that song, find my life very "sway" now adays, issit the days of my blessing are over? and now the days of shit are here?, i really cannot stand it loh. It just don't work well. Just like just now i when for my guitar lesson some more i whern out early loh then in then end up im late cause i miss my bus 2 times leh. is like everything is not working well, just kana bebar from exams cause attendance not good and just last friday i actually dont intend to late and pon school loh. just because i set the wrong time for my alarm clock end up i miss my first lesson. Shit La...just because of that my lecturer debar me from exams just because im late everytime and just last fri i dont intend to be late loh coz i know im late everytime liao, haix...shit la...then some more my thoese friend in school are all idiots loh all pratice favoritism de...shit head la they all...my spritual life are going from good to bad i dont know what is happening i still looking for the root of that problem...and my phase test and 2 other theory test are just next week and im totally lost in my studies now...haix...haix haix...

2006-02-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

2006-02-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

realise all the truth tat was hidden frm me yesterdae, issit right to tell?...or am im doing it at the wrong time?... i don't know what is going to happen next...i don't wish to see the future too... zho yi bu kan yi bu ( walk one step see one step ) ... i don't wish to care too much im already very tired with all the problems i encountering now... im very tense up already, at least i know the real ans at least it lighten my burdern, i don't need to stress over what to say or when to say or what to do next.... what is going to happen next i have totally no idea. i think i do need time also...people were asking me how do i feel now?...i really dont know how to answer back...i also dont know what to say...i was still thinking am i that stupid to go and do it... im afraid that things will not turn out well... at least im glad that all the truth have been reavaled...

2006-02-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

finally back to blogging...hav already make up my mind...i wan to go poly after ITE....i jux cant stand ITE life liao....i hav been left out frm my frens for 6yrs since P6... i dun wan to left out for another 3yrs...i cant stand it... jux hate ppl in my class loh...dey jux simply sux la...hav to force myself to be wif dem even i dun quite lyk dem.... dey are ppl which i cant realli accept loh...but at least not all are lyk tat la mayb 4/10 ppl are more friendly...but overall i jux dun lyk ITE...i realli wan to get out of there ASAP...i jux hate it...it jux so sickening to see thoese ppl... i jux dun lyk dem...but no choice still hav to hang out wif dem...or else i realli got no ppl to hang out wif...is not tat im aniti social is me jux cant realli accept dem...it seems tat there are realli no path in ITE...u cant realli denied it...even there is u think de path got prosepect mah?.... i dun tink so loh...frm all my reseach...there are actually 2 path for me to choose next yr

1. Go to Higher Nitec and study IT for 1yr den go NS for 2yrs den go poly for 3yrs
2. Go poly for 3 yrs den go NS for 2 yrs

both of dem got pros and cons actually...if i go Higher Nitec i got a even higher chance to survive in poly...as dey preapare u for poly stuff...but is very very time consuming....if i go poly straight away it will be even faster...time is a important actually if i go higher nitec first by de time i go poly will be 21 lyk tat...which lyk weird weird ppl 16+ go poly... den is lyk i retain for 6yrs...and wen im 21 u tink my parents still can pay for my studies?...im not sure too...by de time my mum might not be working liao...den by de time i will start work too...den is almost impossible to get a job which got time to study and work at de same time wif a ITE cert?.... and if can...it will affect my minstry in church...den by de time i gradu from poly i will be 24 to 25 liao...ppl by tat age already got a degree...me leh still diploma...end up i still left out again...wah lau...den if i go poly next yr if will save more time...but i will suffer...unless i work very xtrem hard la...haix...nw with my results lyk tat i mostly likely can go RP or NYP...70% for RP...50% for NYP...i noe RP sux...heard lots of stuff frm my frens oso...but no choice...better den no poly can accept me rite...even it seems tat i got high chance in goin poly...but de big prob is...there are lots of ppl fighting of seats in poly oso...not jux thoese ppl taking Os lev and private Os but oso ppl frm ITE oso...haix...unless i get a GPA 3.7 or above i will stance damm high chance...haix...realli tough man...cannot blame this is life...

2006-02-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

haha todae wen to guitar lesson...my teacher was so cool loh...frm so many guitarist i noe...his one of the best few i realli admire loh...wah de way he play...is lyk so power...i even dunnoe how to describe....esp de way he play de chords is lyk wow!!...he can change realli damm fast loh...wah!!! realli power sia...den hor he can create lots of wonders on guitar loh...okok he todae tot me how to play E key the chords...which is quite easy...until he tot me a way to play E key...which is even more damm easy and sound even nice...which chu last time tot me b4 which i realli never go pratice haha sorri...coz never noe how powerful tat way of playing can b...i can sense tat i gettin more and more noob in playing guitar after seeing all de so call "advance" stuff...haha and he told me he goin to teach me lots of stuff...esp de percussion thing wah i realli wan to learn tat...haha once i learn tat i can use tat in cell ....hehe clement will be shock...haha... is realli powerful loh de person can change a simple common song Church on Fire into a complicated and powerful song...wow!!!...his goin to change all my way of playin haha... jux cant wait...to see myself playing wonders too...haha

2006-02-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

back to blogging haha...at least i got blog k...dun sae me never blog hor....haha...jux realise i ate alot nw adaes...i tink im goin to be fat...i realli ate alot loh...in sch i everdae eat chicken chop...summore not small small plate de is tat kind of damm big plate de loh...den i everything eat liao still feel hungry den wen to get sumthing else to eat...evertime lyk tat loh...and hor i jux finish my dinner not long and i feel hungry again...i dun wan to grow fatter i wan to grow TALLER!!!!!!....jux cant stand my height loh...im so stress all my class mate all so tall de loh...dey at least 1 head taller den me...i got 2 frens dey are 2 and half head taller den me leh...wen i everytime hang out wif dem hor...i very stress de leh esp wen i stand in their middle...haha...i realli must look up and talk to dem de loh...lol...

did lots of research on guitar haha...learn quite alot actually...coz i looking for a new guitar...this time must be lots of time better den everson...haha...wen to ask de price for fixing my previous guitar...it sounds so not worth it...but i need a spare lousy type of guitar...coz i need tat to bring around...i dun wan to spoil everson oso...haha...find it hard pain wen i foun tat there is a small scratch on everson leh...haha...find a few guitar i quite lyk de...tinking of getting either takamine or maestro...coz onli this 2 brand satify me haha...

heard tat i play too hard for praise songs...i tink i need to get a suitable pick for cell...my praise song is ok liao...nw need improvment in worship song...den shld be ready ba? haha...shld be... nw need to build confident too...i need confident...feel so stress to play infront of ppl esp thoese hu noes how to play guitar haha...so malu loh...haha...haha gtg do qt liao bb

2006-02-05T19:44:00.000+08:00

OKOK due to Popular demand...due to my RUSTY blog...due to ppl nagging...due to COMPLAINS...I DIE DIE my blog liao...okok shall start frm yesterdae...ya got service yesterdae...it was lyk long time never service liao...feel so shoik after de servce de haha...hav been despo for service for a long time...haha...okok den in de end clement call l me go tat MP room for tat guitar thing...wah lau so MA LU loh never play infront of so many ppl b4...haha...wah lau...so nervous loh...den hor my cell ppl keep thinking tat im not nervous loh...but i am loh...den i play de one way...wah lau my hand wan to die liao...hu ask me wack until so hard waste so much energy...lol...den play all day...almost play wrong chords haha...lucky was fast to realise...den is not tat obvious...haha...den i dunnoe how to play all day de bridge part...den stp there loh...haha...dun hav chance to play worship song..bet dey sure wan to slp de...haha...hey manage to get tat pro to teach me guitar liao haha...was cheap loh one to one lesson onli 100bucks per 4 lesson...outside was 120 loh...cum sumore tat guy teach how to play for cell and service...and most importand de guy is good at teaching dymanics which i need to improve on...haha...and de guy is so nice loh...haha...after so long of waiting i finally can get a real minstry i realli wanted...i reali sacrifice alot alot alot...jux to fulfilled wat i wanted...thru all de periods of sacrifice for tat minstry lots of powerful testimony happen..thru all de sacrifice and and hardship can realli see all de powerful things tat God had done to me...jux one small instrument...it changes my whole life...even thou it takes me so long to climb but all the efforts realli pay off very well...i got so much in return...i get so much blessing in return...

okok den after service we wen to TP...actually intend to go KFC...i was lyk so craving for it loh....den hor clement cannot go...aiyo den end up in food court...den dunnoe hu de plan in the end go BK....den go there eat loh...den was planning hu to sing for valenetine...idiot i may need to sing for valentine loh coz nobody wans to sing..my voice so sux wah lau...so MALU...loh...wah lau...if can sing run by snowpartrol i sure will go sing de...but too bad cannot haha...but the song is so meanginful loh...den nw still considering wan to sing mah...haha...my voice so bad...eee...den after tat was planning where to go after TP...den intend to go eat tau hway de...den is lyk goin to close liao...den end up go amk den mac there...go there talk talk...haha...i tink we stay there lyk quite long around 2hrs lyk tat...end up go freda hse dwn stairs den talk...hha...we lyk so bo liao nth better to do...haha...den was lyk 2am liao...den kg go off...den we go freda hse...saw jason dey all loh...haha...dey were playin majong...den wen to learn...haha...was quite blur blur loh...coz all de cards lyk so confusing leh...den at least in the end i noe how to play...haha...den play until very bad coz always throw de wrong card de...idiot...den everytime take wrong card oso...idiot again...den actually got one round i won loh...den i did not realise i won at first...until de game end...den i realise i actuall won loh...coz was lyk so blur blur mah...idiot...den in de end we play till 7am in de morning...haha..den wen off..took cab hme...reach hme quickly go bath den jump on to bed liao...haha...dey slept at 8am..till 6pm...until nw i still feel tired...ahah...i becmeing to slack liao...wah lau...slp so much...lol...hey heard frm ppl tat my blog is lyk to slang loh...haha...i did not realise tat till ppl came and tell me...haha...i nw i realli realise tat my blog is so slang loh...been a long time since de last time i wrote a proper english compo...so dun blame me hor...okok i promise to write a proper one for de next time...haha...GTG liao bb

2006-01-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

Arrrgghh...fever still not down...grrr...see doctor 4 times liao leh...todae jux got my blood test...den the results sae i dunnoe lack of dunnoe wat in my blood...den suspected dengue..den tml need to blood test again...if still bad...need to go hospital liao...idiot...grrr...tml sat...mum dun let me go service coz still got fever...i dun care i goin to find a way to sneak out of the hse...hehe...wah lau i look at the medicine i realli wan to vomit le...idiot...eat the same medicine for the 5th dae le...summore is bitter de loh...cum must eat every 6 hrs...5 X 6 = 30....wah i eat 30 times of medicine liao...arrrghh....guess is not i sick is the medicine make me sick arrrrrgghhh!!!!.....toopid medicine @(%&)^*$)(^*$_&*....i hate the one in pink espically...grrr so damm bitter loh...nw i ANTI PINK......too bad for thoese hu lyk pink...bleh!!!...hav not been doing proper QT...hey at least i do loh...everytime do QT half way will slp de...HEY dun blame me blame de toopid medicine...make me slp all the time...grrrrr.....i was never so sick in my whole life b4...grrr...stuck at hme so many daes liao...i cant stand it...everydae play everson...play until sian...always play the same old songs in the chord book...grrr...shit la...sure got alot of catch up in my studies...so long never go sch liao...shit shit shit...arrrghh...den mon got lecture for MCT shit i going to be lost...miss so many daes of lesson...arghh!!! stress ar...shit shit shit shit shit...

2006-01-19T16:04:00.000+08:00

SICK SICK SICK!!!...sian...miss my lessons dunnoe how many liao...it was quite ok yestdae nite de...den todae wake up early got fever liao...dammit den go see doctor again twice this week liao den end up got MC for next 2daes...together with yesteade equals to 3daes liao...den plus sat and sun together 5daes...dot dot...kaoz...nw i hate to be sick...jux hate the feeling loh...so todae stuck at hme whole dae wif everson...long time never touch le...coz my sch evertime end damm late...heard frm Freda tat alot ppl in church oso sick...toopid satan no hair one...dun let me see u hor...i make sure i pluck out ur two horns and stuff it in to ur mouth and cme out of ur ass...lol...jux hate to eat medicine loh...hate de bitter bitter taste...yucks...i hate to be sick...gtg bb

2006-01-16T19:58:00.000+08:00

First dae of sch todae...haiz...so fast holidae end...still in holidae mood grrr...at least my body still can adapt to waking up early haha...use to slp till 3 or 4 pm or 10Hr+ of slp tat kind de...but at least nw i can wake up early at 6.15am...onli 6hrs of slp nia...onli feel little bit tired nia..haha... received my timetable todae...is so shit loh...almost everydae late dismiss...grrr...sux loh...wah lau...den hor worst part i HATE my class advisor grrrr...can u belive it her name is Ms Gay...is realli Ms Gay...and she jux shit loh...my whole life in ITE never encounter such a NIAO and strict lecturer...tat one cannot this one cannot...grrr...den the way she speak is so GAY loh...i cant stand it loh... dunnoe y suddenly i need clement so much... i need to speak to him!!!...SHIT...where is he grrr....always missing wen i need to speak to him...i tink i shld settle this one and for all...i dun wan it to hang throught out the whole 2006 or my whole life...i jux cant stand it...i jux cant find a very very good suitable solution...grrr....it has been so long... and it been hanging in my life since 2005...almost a yr liao...and till nw i havent find a very very good solution...what shld i do...i cant hide forever rite?...it need to be unleashed...and is actually quite risk taking...what shld i do???

2006-01-12T15:24:00.000+08:00

wow!!! God jux Bless me haha...jux so happy...shall be a testi for todae de testi sharing in cell grp todae...haha...God bless me haha so happy...okok...hav not been blogging for the past few weeks shall blog todae...my net was been suspended due to never pay bills...now onli can tab on other ppl de network to keep me Survive...arrghhh!!!! internet is my life arrghhh!!!...haha...hey jux change the deisign of my blog...haha nice mah...wah todae so fast 12jan liao ar...sian goin sch reopen liao haix.... i hate to wake up early esp the raining days...so nice to slp loh...haha jux found out tat jevelle bought me the organizer very useful...at least i store everything in haha...den will not forget...wonder how am i goin to spent the amount of money haha...shall buy new PS2? new guitar or new handphone haha...gtg end here liao bb

2006-01-02T18:58:00.000+08:00

shall talk about yesterdae...blabla...wake up damm late i tink shld be around 4pm ba...den was listening to the last christmas...was a damm nice song...so wen to find chords for tat song loh...den wen dwn to church was quite bored coz all doin their own stuff...den use church guitar to pratice loh...den after tat dey all plan to go marina bay there de...den end up sotong and penguine dun wan to go...den onli got Johan, piglet chu and me...go nia...lol...so we meet up ql dey all loh wen grapevine...den play pictionary..haha..nth loh actually...den was around 2pm..den all take cab go back...den 5 of us squeeze into 1 cab...haha ya was illegal acutally..haha less den 5mins...saw police checkpoint infront of us around 500meters aways ba...den we were lyk shock loh...den i quickly get out of the cab b4 kana caught...den the cab wen to the checkpoint...heard tat de police saw me getting out of the cab...God bless the driver was smart told de police tat i onli live nearby there onli...haha den manage to get away...den me leh walk all the way to serangoon stadium call dem back to fetch me...den hor i got no sense of direction de loh...keep telling dem i at stadium de main entrance...den hor dey go the other entrance ...den dots dots loh describe de place to damm lyk siao den mange to trace me dwn...lol...den get into the cab loh den go hme loh...blabla...got to end short coz ql dey all jux called me call me to meet dem at 7.45pm...gtg bb

2005-12-27T03:41:00.000+08:00

nw is 3.45am in the morning cant slp...still abit awake...but abit sleepy too...was realli pondering lots of stuff in head...find it very weird to be so free nw... coz big day over...i dun wish to be free... coz i dun wish to tink so much... i realli wan to get myself occupied with stuff again...argghh!!!... okok big day was not very good in population...but the atmosphere was there... jux love it...haha... esp the drama part was so damm funny even im the one acting... dun get the chance to see the dance...shit!!...must be very bad loh de dance...haix... im realli realli very tired over the troubles in me...shit man... how to get rid of it... i noe is nearly imposible but why cant i jux let it go...grrr!!! dammit wen it cmes to this kind of stuff...arghh!! im jux shit loh...find myself change alot...in the way of my tinking...at least im more postitive tinking compare to last time...haha issit a good sign?...haha... yawn wan to slp nw hav to wake up early at 2pm haha...hey tat is early for me kae...i wake up at 3pm plus de hor...hahh bb

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2005-12-09T04:21:00.000+08:00

k...was 4.30am nw...cant slp...was actually pondering a few things...hav been goin thru so many difficulits in life...but how to i over cme this prob nw...i dun wish to tink of wat is goin to happen...but does u noe the feel inside me...is so stuffy...i cant jux release it out...was realli sad wen i tink of wat will goin to happen or wat had already happen... i jux dun wish to realli to tink of it... but things keep on making me to ponder over it...im jux a coward after all...jux realli a freaking coward loh...wat a useless bum am i...haix...jux a small thing i cant even do it... i realli have noe eyes see wat is goin to happen... many ppl tot tat i will be ok with the fact and the truth tat is goin to take place soon...but the actual fact is i cant accept it...in terms of good and bad...i dunnoe... i hav such a phobia accepting such a little thing...jux feeling myself useless...i always tot tat i can overcme this difficult situation but i was realli wrong...y do it hav to end this way...

2005-11-20T13:11:00.000+08:00

what is the biggest dissapoinment is life?...is doin sumthing with ur great passion and confident and determination but it dun succed... and slowly it leads to phobia... which u dun wish to face it again...but i hav to face it...i dun wish to run away frm it...even im not talented but too bad i hav great determination... imagine praticing sumthing everdaey for 4 to 8hrs for pass 5 to 6mths and u sacrifice so much jux for it to succed but it did not... i was been called by God to do this but dunnoe y it turn out this way?... was actually abt to give up ...but was quite motivated by a story shared by my church mates... his rite my time is not here yet...but it will cme...was oso been motivated by my pastor preaching last nite too...was a good one "Moses was been train by God for 80yrs b4 God can use him for 40yrs"...was God trying to tell me thing last nite...as im typing this Holy Spirit had annointed me...i oso dunnoe y im writing blog actually haha... my time is not here but is comin... hav to hold on no matter wat...Hope u guys hu see this will pray for me haha thx

shld i ?

2005-10-11T05:24:00.000+08:00

Hav been asking myself every moment of my life...Shld I?...or Shld i not?...i was in a confuse state...i dun wish to affect anyone's life...y issit so difficult... i dun wish to be lyk tat... every time i step into my life y issit so miserable... not knowing the true ans... it seem good for me not to noe the ans but in other way it oso seem not good for not knowing the ans... is all lies with "shld i or shld i not"...my life is getting better i guess...my old self is coming back...issit a good sign?...or issit bad?... but the onli prob im facing nw is "shld i or shld i not"... im so afraid things will be different after knowing the truth... will life be totally different? hav been pondering... lately...who am i? or hu do u tink am i?...y issit so difficult... i dun wan history to happen again tats all... im so afraid... i always wanted to express my emotion out...but i din...i dun wish to affect others... i jux wan it to be in me... y issit so hard?... haiz no one will understand wat i wrote above oso no point writing down

Big Day

2005-09-06T09:22:00.000+08:00

haha been so long since the last time i update...okie shall start at last fri...was quite nervous haha coz big day was the next dae...very weird to see my nerous rite....haha sumone so fierce oso can get nervous de...haha...coz i never perform drama b4 in my life...haha...scared tat i forget the script...so we have a long rehearsal after powerhouse...can tell u the power house is one of the most powerful one i ever have haha...can feel the real need of God and His presence....so after tat rehearsal loh....lasted quite long...den finall next dae the Big day....meet up in church i reach the most early de...haha...den Kim guang came den follow by Peter... dey were busy packing stuff for big day...me leh...infront of the com doing last min touch up...den after tat hlp dem wif the stuff loh...den de rest reach...squeeze in the van wen to costa sand there....were big day was held...unload all the stuff to the conference room loh....den preapare the place well...got lots of cock up....

around 3.30 lyk tat everyone reach den the big day started at first was P&W...den due to dunnoe wat...Clement de keyboard no power...den hav to stp for awhile loh...toopid satan....no hair de...okie den everything wen well again haha...den is drama part...me lyk so rush loh...we wen to change...did not expect dem to change so fast haha...wen i get into the conference room saw chu ting there sitting...wah she damm fast leh haha...mayb coz hav to gel my hair mah...hey i use 1/4 of the gel leh....alot rite...lol....den the drama wen well loh...got one scene i forgot to on mic lol...lucky qui yun the mic very sensitive den can receive my voice...lol...everything wen well...haha...after tat is preaching...loh...den alter call...wen to dare 5 ppl at my row...but onli one came out haix........okie den John3:16 time... me was looking for lost soul...but all kana taken liao left wif backslider...oso not me take over...so me there walk walk see how ppl do John3:16 loh...den saw Jerermy tok to him awhile...den get dem to the chalet there for BBQ...den we pack up the stuff to the van loh...wen to the chalet la...was so hungry did not eat much...was spiritual low tat time...haix...lots of prob i encountering nw....did not expect my warfare stared so soon... so tense up liao... after tat stay over nite...shall skip ya....

okok...next dae wen to church frm chalet to unload all the stuff den wen hme frm there... cox i miss everson lol...den was busy wif everson until i forgot my time...btw wat u tinking everson is my yongest son ( YamahaFG700ms )... lol not i gay... den meet chu ting pass her the cd den hav to rush dwn to sch for sj cox dey all leaving for BGI soon...den reach...find it kind of weird dunnoe y the whole corp so little frm 120 cadets bcme 54 cadets...lol....den wen BGI loh...was there quite sian...wif Yz and gang...at the back of the staduim slping lol...den Sir la....borrow hp frm me anyhow take his photo den sent mms using my hp...den dunnoe sent to hu...nw the person keep on asking me hu am i...irritating rite...or sir the fault lol....okok...den 10min b4 BGI start wen off wif miss poon...buy supper...den wen to sch loh...me play bbdall alone...lol...no one pei me mah the sch onli got me, sonia and xue ying nia...den after tat dey all came back...den fall in etc etc...den dinner...etc etc...den got a few things happen cannot tell haha as usaual "Confidential" lol....cannot sae de la...haha...den shall skip skip till...nights off...we were playing on later the firedrill wat time den fall in wat time...lol....den was lyk plan liao...we intend to slp for awhile...coz we set alarm le mah...toopid sonia...we already lying dwn liao...going to slp liao...Sonia la so noisy keep on asking qus cum toking....never make us so hard to slp....den she keep on asking qus...den we keep on dunone to reply her lol...den wake up coz alarm ran wat...was 2.25am...hehe time for fire drill so we all wen up shout fire loh...so suprise leh...den so slow oso can fall-in in the parade square within 3min ++ lol...mayb the corp is very little ppl tats y haha...so get dem to go back to bunk...den we wen back to slp till 3am ++...den fall in...den chaging parade etc etc...loh...PT and attire checking and stuff...den after tat get dem back to bunk loh...den me walk walk for awhile...den we wen to cave and slp...kaoz the cave dammm cold loh...lol...as usual Sonia keep on making noise...lol...den we all dun one to reply her...lol...haha...den after tat break camp loh...den go hme slp...think got to end here liao...but lecturer still toking crap haha gtg liao bb...

Tired!

2005-08-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

okie...im back to blog...wen to Fstival of Paise last sun with Chu ting, Kim Guang and Clement...actually we dun intend to go de...coz no one wans to go...so after the drama rehearsal...wen to AMK ave 4 there....den walk hme...wen i was abt to reach hme Chu Ting call me and ask wan to go Festival of praise mah...den i go loh...wen to queue for FOP with Chu and Kim...kaoz...was damm hot loh...lucky we met Joshua...den can cut queue and go all the way front...the FOP was so power...scream till i siao...jump here and there till i go nuts...LOL...haha... at least it release my anger on sumthing....ok...den yesterdae wen to stay over night at marina bay and toa pa yoh...with frens loh...was watching fire works den go toa pa yoh den play lan...lol..den 6.30 go BOL church there hlp dem paint the walls for fund rasing for our Big Day event...have not been slping for more den 30+ hours loh till nw...lol...so damm tired...even wen i typing nw i keep on yawning...dunnoe for how many thousand time...nw onli 10.15pm...still so early...wan to go and zzz...see ya guys....Happy National Day

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2005-08-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

Happy bdae to me, Happy Bdae to me, Happy Bdae to me... Haha todae my bdae...have early celebration wif my frens liao...onli left with the broz havent celebrate...humph!!...lol..haha...sum other time ba...anywae todae did not wen out wif my frens for bdae...coz i wan to pei my family..sorri guys...haha...my time so packed till no time to pei them...so todae is a good dae to hav this chance...so drop all my schdule...haha...sorri guys...celebrate wif u all nxt time kae...haha...okok...todae realli take this chance to pei my parents cum do all my personal stuff...not realli all la...half of it...haha...okok...pratice my guitar very hard...todae...btw...forgot to tell u guy i manage to play tat song liao...haha...after so long the pratice...so todae was praticing my bar chords...abit hard at first...but i sill got it...still need more pratice..haha....wen to hospital yesterdae to see Peter...and his much more better liao Praise Lord....okok so after visiting Peter we went to the Food court at SGH there eat...CBK dey all eat...but i never eat...so see dem eat loh...lol...den there was fighting... kaoz...oso dunnoe wat happen but got show watch can liao...lol...i very bad rite...haha...Jux receive sms frm Kim guang tat Peter temp rise up again...oh my...he was ok yesterdae wen we see him...need to pray hard for his health liao...anywae received lots of SMS, MMS, MSN frm ppl wishing me Happy bdae...haha thx guys...

2005-07-28T17:35:00.000+08:00

Everymoment of my life looks so packed, so busy over so many stuff...hav been praticing my guitar lately...did failed lots of times i mean is realli lots and lots of time loh. but i still take up the courage to realli pick and pratice till it is perfect...and i mean perfect... was so disappointed yesterdae manage the get the beat frm the song, den i tried to change the beat into guitar...tot was right at first...den wen i play with the music...dammit is so dammm SUX loh...kaoz...was so happy at first tot i finally got it...den haiz...so wen to slp early...den next morning which is todae over slept den saw my hp it was 8.00am liao...i was suppose to wake up at 8am de...den hack care too tired liao den i wake up at 8.30...arrgh still so tired den intend to skip my first lesson...den slp till 9am...dammit my 2nd lesson start at 10am...den was tinking to rush but end up never rush...take my time already so late liao...wat for rush right...den reach sch i was late for my 2nd lesson for 45mins...haha pra lesson mah...den onli go sch for 1hr den go hme....haha...must well dun go rite...coz i need to buy voucher for ql bdae mah...must well got awhile den go buy voucher....dunnoe why nwadaes i find sch so sian...i was so dammm damm slack after my June holidaes loh...hav been slping in class almost everyime...den is slp through out all the lesson tat kind leh...haha...but horz at least i still can catch abit of my studies...haha...im a genius haha...bhb...lol...was wondering wen is Judgement Day comin...damm curious on how is God goin to look like...and how He goin to Judge me, and the most curious is how Heaven is goin to look like...haha...how i wish im dead now...totaly dun find things around me interesting nw... i jux wan to go back to Heaven to find my Heavenly Father...but too bad commiting Sucide is a Sin haiz...haha...wondering wat is the point of me living...Dunnoe wat is the plan tat God got for me...haiz...anywae goin to church later on for Bible Study...suppose to go church todae to pratice guitar de...haiz...so damm slack now...

How Long have it been?

2005-07-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

Hey back, so long never update liao...was busy wif so many stuff..ministry, sch, cca, church etc...no personal time for me haiz...my life is so packed wif so many stuff...was quite down nwadaes... haiz long story dun wish to share oso... have been praticing guitar lately...tink i improve abit liao... need more pratice...hav to find time everytime jux to pratice my guitar...life too packed liao... hey Big Day coming soon guess i will be even more packed liao...haha...so watch the hillsong concert de dvd...the guitarist realli inspire me man...i wan to be like dem nxt time...smash the guitar wen the end of the concert...kaoz...how i wish i can lead a band like the hillsong do haha...guess i still a damm long way to go loh... have lots to learn...i need lots and lots of time...anywae guess i will end here liao...so late liao tml still got lesson...tata

back again

2005-06-29T09:56:00.000+08:00

haiz nw in my sch the IT hub...damm sian...my frens dey all doing e tutor and project...me leh...slacking in front of the com...finding sch life quite boring nwadaes...even i quite lyk my sch time table...quite tired...too much stress liao...haiz...stress over my financial, my cca, my sch, my study, my church, my ministry...haiz...dunnoe how to organize my time well...still owe Freda 180bucks...still need to save $$...haiz my lecture going to start in the nxt 20mins...hav to rush through...haiz...sian again...no wonder i can't smile...always act as normal...but in me im feeling so damm lonely...haiz...feeling quite tired...everytime slp in class...nw i dunnoe miss how many lessons liao...too lazy to study...tink i regreted thinking this course...shld hav take up multimedia loh...wah kaoz...sian...haiz...feeling very low liao...den everytime still kana scolded, go church oso kana...at hme oso kana...in sch oso kana...y everywhere i go sure kana scolded de ar...feeling so alone man...nw i got so much problem...dunnoe how to handle...haiz...

Long Time no Update

2005-06-24T11:28:00.000+08:00

yo!... Haha nw in sch onli 11.27am nia...30 more mins dismiss liao haha...long time never update...coz busy mah...haha...anywae got to update short coz nw having lessons haha...lol...long time never come in liao...almost forgot my username haha...anywae going to church later...go there slack lohz...haha...oso pratice my guitar...haha...im playing both drum and guitar oso...haha...i wan to write a song of mine...tat is my dream...haha...anywae got to end here liao...haha

ciao!!

2005-05-25T11:48:00.000+08:00

oh haha...sorri guys...promise to update but lazy...haha...okok...was quite busy wif church ministry...got lots of stuff to do...haha...oh ya...Xtream Camp comin soon 10 more daes jux can't wait lol...haha...nw i realise is been quite a long time since i wen back to SJ haha...was toking abt it yesterdae wif Yz and Ken...haha...anywae if there is a choice between SJ and church the fact is i will choose church haha...SJ oso nth to do de...haha...long time never see Ken till yesterdae wen to his stall there...den realise he sells ROJAK not You tiao alone...lol...wen to AMK libarary...haha u guys sure find me very weird go tat kind of place rite haha...was actually hunting for books jux nw..haha...den after tat wen to church pei Kim guang dey all...den got power house...haha...lasted for 1h lehz...haha...first time power house 1h haha...lol...haha...jux add in new bg music is frm united hillsong "Tell the world abt you"...haha anywae got to go liao see u guys nxt time...

Hey My first blog

2005-05-19T13:21:00.000+08:00

haha finally after so long created my first blog not frm blogskins.com...haha...at least is my idea rite...haha...tink is still looks okok to mee...haha...but i still need comments frm u guys...kae? haha...feel free to give comments on the tag-board haha...kae?...haha...will be updating frequnetly le...haha...coz blog easier to update mahz...haha...but i still hate blog lol...dunnoe why...coz very mafan...when ever need to upload photo must got alot of process de..haha...too bad hu ask geocities nw got so many advertisment pop ups make me so freak up man..haha...anywae goin to church to study liao...goin there early to play drum haha...sian tml got exam yet i'm still slacking haha...anywae update sum other time ba...haha...

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2005-05-19T10:51:00.000+08:00

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