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not been blogging this few daes....was realli into a very very big consideration...in my heart long ago i was actually thinking and considering...well after wat edmund and zl sae it make me even more into pondering mode...well i find wat dey sae is abit true even it sounds lame...but i think back issit tat wat i wan??...well wat ppl sae does make sense to me la...but i realli abit confuse abt it...

sumtimes i feel myself talking to a wall....and got back a word reply or even worst no reply....am i so irrtating????wen i talk nicely at times i got back is either a cold reply or a very very hot reply....at times i realli feels soooo sour....dey are realli realli rite...i shld realli think hard and make a decision....bet u guys dunnoe wat this entry abt...well if u dunnoe den is not ment for u to noe....

wah todae is realli a powerful testi....shall share it for the comin cell...im jux so excited over my new song...well is SO POWERFUL!!!....is goin to be a testi...realli tat song is going to be my living offering to God...my first song i ever wrote...wow...im realli very impress so actually haha...JUX SO HAPPY....LALALA~~~~...LOL...after all the trying and failing finally i got sum thing is realli satisfying...haha...im jux happy...i wan to write more songs for the LORD!!!!....

wow beside tat...was suprise to manage get zl and et to church todae...was realli a big testi oso...i tried to get dem for so long...prayers after prayers and nw it happen...wow is jux so powerful...todae preaching the pastor preach one part where he sae abt the passion of Christ...i was lyk dunnoe y i was brought in a another dimension...is lyk i seeing real life thing...is not jux a ordinary vision i see....is realli so real tat i can even feel the scars at the back of Jesus...i dun feel the pain of coz la...but i can feel the scars...i dunnoe how to describe...is a kind of feeling hard to describe...is sumthing very powerful...WOW PRAISE THE LORD!!! tat is wat i can sae...

jux reach hme frm church...i jux stp playin over the song i wrote...trying to find sum editing to make it a perfect piece im realli jux so excited over it....realli...i dunnoe how to sae abt it but i realli glad over the standard...haha...is realli a big TESTI...shall it for comin cell...

been thru lots and lots of ups and down this few weeks...realli is a tough spirtual warfare...but well i belive i will grow even stronger in faith and spirtually...in fact im starting to fight back nw...even though im still wounded during the warfare...im finally on my toes fighting back this time round...read through all my pass bdae cards....was very inspired and motivated by the card my cell ppl gave me last yr...there is this one inspiring msg in my card by jason and it goes...

A Goal comes From a Dream
A Dream Comes From a Vision
A Vision is being set off by Desire
And a Desire is Mark down by a Decision...

was realli reading this message again and again...i start to realli understands wat it means...it realli motivates me...hope it does motivates ppl hu have a dream...during my spirtual warfare i was realli doubt my faith and dream...but jux frm no where a this sentence of words pops in front of me..."If dreams are ment to be realistic then why do we still need Miracles from God?"
is lyk wow...i was pondering this again and again...it does make sense...do we think our dreams are realistic???...if dreams are realistic it will not be called dreams in the first place...do u think dreams cme without Miracles?? obviously it does cme wif Miracles ....then where do Miracles cme from???...obviously is God!!!...

argh jux reali yeseterdae during cell pratice after service tat my worship songs all de-improve ...shit la...guess i pratice too much on my praise songs for the past 1 mth never focus on woship songs....i was very very shock we i go off beat yesterdae...i was thinking wat the hack am i doin and OH SHIT!!!...argh den todae wen to smoothen out my worship songs....den realise tat i lyk forget how to play...even i sing go off beat wif my playin...realli played too much praise songs liao...took mee the whole of my sun to smoothen out everything again...at least nw much more better....argh wats happening to me...guess i will take these few days to balance out my woship songs and praise songs b4 cell...i guess i think i will be playin better this time round after seeing chuting play...manage to adapt some new tricks...haha...havent realli try yet...but ya i guess will be slightly better...

seems tat im having cold war wif my bro...jux hate his stinking attitude....always thinks tat his rite and im always wrong...he jux din realise most of his frens dun lyk his attitude loh....we tried to tell him...and again HE THINKS HIS RITE!!!!!!....argue wif him the other time....jux cant stand him loh...argh dun wan to talk abt him...makes me boiled my blood...

jux realise tat my life everthing nw dun works well...argh wat is the hack is happening to me...quite pissed of wif quite number of ppl these few daes...not tat im not forgiving..but is more den once...argh!!!...i was jux trying to be friendly and nice...but do i deserve all these???

argh typin all there makes me hungry...wats wrong wif my diet there few daes i seems to eat alot den de next moment i dun feel lyk eating...

talk peter todae...well was realli convinced by wat he sae...i actually agree wif him...but well there is an option for me...shld i take it?... if i choose tat option is realli goin to be very tuff... well in every tuff journey there will be a pay off...as he was talking to me...i begin to see flash back of my past...the time i ran away frm tuff situation and bcoz of tat i lost out all the benifits...and bcoz of tat i regreted for my life...the past i chose to run away...but nw this kind of options appear to me again...i was realli totally stucked... do i wan to regret lyk last time??? or do i wan to stand at the finishing line and said i made the right choice??...since i have cme so far already wats is the point of letting it go??? it seems tat i am one of the chosen one by God...

have been very quiet for this few weeks...well my frens and classmate were asking me are u alright y so quiet...jux not myself la...use to be very noisy...well there is nth happen to me la...dun worry la...is onli lots of things in my mind...

was fasting todae...suddenly was been promted to fast by the Holyspirit...so gave up all the money in my wallet for tithes and offering...well im fasting for talent and confident for my Ministry...this request is nw very porpular in my mind this few weeks even though i have been asking for more then a yr... many temptations arnd me nw even im at hme...wen to open the fridge saw sushi so tempting...i will not lose to the devil too bad i will not fall in to ur temptation...in order to resist the temptation i will slp early tonite since im not having enough slp this week...

im still not satisfy for my perfomance last cell...even though i feel tat there is slight improvment...but to me im not up to my expectation...how i wish i can master the skill my teacher showed me todae...playing bass and solo plus rythem in cell...so cool...todae lesson is very difficult...the solo thing...learn penatonics major and penatonics minor scales...think shld be spelled this way...playin it in C box and A box....den horizontal scale...den dunnoe wat blues thing argh!!!...