i quite fed up liao...i jux dun wish to sae it here...im very very tired i need a break frm everything...y everywhere i go things always happen...i hav enough of my own probs...nw new prob comin up...CAN SUMONE HERE ME I CANT BREATH!!!!!.....totally no one understands how i feel nw...y ppl is taking me for nth...i was jux being nice...i felt very very pressurize wen i talk to him...i jux dun lyk de way he approach me...is lyk i dun feel comfortable loh...y im doin things tat im not happy with....its making me a entertainmer...it totally not MYSELF...y ppl can express dem self FREELY...Y CANT I!!!!...IM OSO A HUMAN BEING...i hav too much to keep inside me...and im goin to STUFF to death!!...I CANT BREATH!...i already hav enough of my own personal probs...y things hav to add on....u ask me moneny is lyk so easy...wen i ask u back is lyk i OWE u thousand bucks...wat is this!!!...i noe u did alot to this family and i appreactiate it...but u oso must think tat not jux u need money i oso need leh...!!!....i din ask back alot frm u noe mah!!!....with u wan ppl to understand u y cant u simply understand ppl first...i noe mummy nags everytime but can u talk to her nicely??? even sumtimes i talk to her but i noe my limits i still obey wat she call me to do!!...and daddy cannot take anymore impact liao...can u see his health situation nw!!!????.....u noe wat happen to him wen u in taiwan????!!!....i was afraid tat i may lose my father at tat time u noe tat???!!!.......................I HAV ENOUGH OF MY OWN PROBS LIAO...i jux wan to find a place to hav a break frm it...but wenever i go THOUSANDS OF PROB POP IN TO ME!!!....IM VERY VERY SICK AND TIRED LIAO.....

CAN ANYONE HEAR ME I CANT BREATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha my favorite guitarist...Steve vai one of the best few guitarist in the world...one of the most sexy guitarist...haha looks abit lyk Clement Ng oso....before watching press the stop button ur your window next to the refresh button to stop my current background music....to hav the best view kindly scroll the it to ur preference...coz his finger style is nice

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im goin CRAZY CAN SUMONE HERE ME!!!!....GRRRR....I CANT GET IT SHIT IT SOUNDS LYK SHIT!!!!!

Im lost in the way im walking, I feel the weight pulling me down, thousands of voices surrounding me with negative respond, in the mist of total darkness I see my self falling apart frm the loving one...far far apart...isolated alone from the crowd...wandering around in the place u totally cant see...blinded by the voices that u cant hear...in split seconds thousands of burning needles penetrates into every edge of my skin my heart was melted by the extreme heat...I totally lost the sense of touch...I cant feel a thing...I forgotten what is love...isolated alone no one hears me and sees me...I totally cant see a thing is so dark that I cant see my hands...hidden with fear beneath me...a place where is totally unknown to me...a place without hopes and future...a place with sorrows and pains hidden by the past...guilt filled into me as my memories flashes into my mind...my sword shattered into pieces, my shield splited into half...im totally exhausted from battle...i fell onto the ground...surrounded by critics, every word of them penetrates like a sword pierce into your heart...closing my eyes about to give up my hope...out from no where the sound of war Trumpet was blown...the moment I open my eyes...I saw myself lying on the clouds with thousands of angels surrounding me...I can see light from the sun as its horizontal to the clouds...a voice of assurance answered me "I have Come" ...seated up right I saw thousands of angels marching into the battleground with the sound of trumpet blown...the darkness retreated...earthquake shattered throughout the whole battleground the unfruitful perish beneath the earth...the demons burned into ashes...the dirt and muddy ground turns into large green patch of grass, the fallen trees turns into a fruitful tree...life starts to take place as the river flows between the banks...sweet pleasant aroma from the flowers brings out the freshness of the earth...bird singing on tree top creates a new song or praise...as the deer pants for water in the river it creates new life into the living...Lord was watching over me all along I din notice a thing, He came to me with the help with His hands...The moment I hold His hands I feel the closeness with Him like a child had found his Father after a long period of lost...

Catch no Ball haha is a piece of art LOL! This is actually a description on how God hit into my life...

Shall blog abt yesterdae...wah! XIONG! yesterdae me,yz,zl,et wen cycling frm thomson to esplande den to east coast....we met around 10.30am lyk tat at zl hse dwn stairs coz zl and et borrow bike frm him mah...den i cycle frm my hse to zl hse dwn stairs...dwn was planing the route with the map wif dem den go eat breakfast...den after tat we go off...was quite "SONG" coz the weather is good den we cycle frm thomson to Novena there den after frm there go Sim Lim square den to Raffles Hotel den to Esplande wah we took 1h30mins to reach there...quite fast actually...den rest at marina park there...den after plan de route to east coast...wah tat one XIONG ar...we look at the map is lyk short distance to us...den actually was not loh...den we start to cycle again...at first we tot Nicoll highway rebuild le mah after so long den tat was the shortest cut...den we were lyk cycling everywhere jux to look for Nicoll lol..den end up cannot find haha...but was quite interesting coz we got a chance to see things tat we never seen b4 haha...i din expect tat singapore realli got such damm old building loh...den after tat we stp and re plan...this time go by kallang road...kaoz tat was a long one....so we cycle for 45mins jux to find kallang road...dammit den after tat we saw de sign board kallang road...wah finally reach...but not yet end we need to go all the way straight to find still road....kaoz another long distance den cycle loh...may seems tiring but quite fun coz is different frm cylcing on road and in park...park is lyk so dead and boring but road is more exciting loh...different atmosphere de feel...den after tat we took another 30mins to find still road...is lyk wah finally...den we cylcle thru the under pass den to east coast park...den after tat we go eat mac...coz too hungry liao...den after tat we cycle to jetty...den we suddenly got a very weird weird de feeling coz we use to cycle on road liao den nw in park very weird...haha...is lyk no "KICK" to us...den is lyk so dead and boring haha...den after reach jetty..den after tat we all jump into the sea and swim haha...toopid zl act cool siao dun wan to cme dwn...wan to see chio bu issit?? haha...den after we build tall tall de sand castle den we play "GUN BOUND" with cococnut haha lame leh...den i throw the coconut until mid air den almost landed on zl haha lucky he saw it and ran away frm it...haha...lame la...haha...den after tat quite late liao den we all cycle back to the nearest shower den go there bath...den after tat plan the route to go back wah...this is worst...haha...we plan the fastest way...but sway sway wen we cycle den we realise we choose the wrong route coz all goin up hill de...den we lyk wah kao...den until one part very "SONG" i think is at paya lebar there...the whole long stretch of road is go dwn hill de...wah den we cycle den we charge all the way dwn haha...den after tat we saw bishan...den cycle to RAffles JC there...wah tat one oso tiring siao coz goin up hill de...den after tat reach thomson...wah den rest...den talk talk here and there den after tat go hme...

ok my 2nd blog of de day...im jux simply DEAD BORED!!!...stuck at hme argh!....i always wanted to hav holiday yet nw how i wish i dun...grrr!! hav been praticing tat new strumming thing i jux cant get it loh...sum time can get it sum time dun...hav been praticing for weeks liao grrr!!!...shit la sick and tired...can sumone motivate me to move on!!....argh!....wen to st22 jux nw eat lunch alone den go den see got any biycle shop coz i wan to buy inner tube...den there dun hav wen to J8 there...and the sign board saes "MONDAY CLOSED" dammit grrr!!!...waste my trip den wen to porpula to buy map...dammit so ex sia 8bucks leh....find a pair of converse shoes quite nice...thinking of getting tat one tml...learn few new things yesterdae...my teacher taught me how to play de counter melody beat for the song Salvation is here...quite cool...den he tot me how to play power chords and muted palms plus snare beat kaoz looks so coooool!! but damm HARD loh...wah lau i always snare at de wrong beat GRRR!!!!....

finally cme back to blogging...was damm busy this few days now finally holiday liao...all my projects done liao...onli wait for sch re open to present...siao leh presentaion at least 20mins...wah!!! kao!!!....nvm...lots of things happen too lazy to say also...this whole will be busy outside haha....need to go shopping for lots of stuff liao...im not goin to waste this holiday away....im goin to ikea again to get my new com table...my table nw lyk goin to collaspe anytime liao...thinking of getting peter the study room tat type looks so cool!....but quite ex leh....wow! i din realise i wake up so early todae without de hlp of my alarm clock haha...first time...my room nw is dammmmm messssy!!....oso lazy to clean up haha....jux cant wait to see how jaclyn look lyk tml haha...oh ya need to buy lots of stuff tml guess i will be broke den haha....haha gtg i havent brush my teeth yet