hav been praticing lately...i can see a slight improvement...but hav to sharpening it...not very use to the new way of playing...is lyk very weird...nw i hav to overcome stage fright...guess non of u guys actually noe tat i got stage fright...is quite bad actually...whenever i try to do sumthing tat requires skill i will tend to tremble and my hands and legs will becme stiff and the most funny thing is i will keep on shaking my leg alot esp wen i am standing...so guys hav to be paitient with me...haha...so to overcome this i jux hav to face it...participating unwind is realli taking me lots of courage to do so...haha..even i cant sing well but at least i gain experience in performing...hav been experimenting on different ways of playin for different songs...quite intersting actuall...din realise tat u can realli use ur creativity to play and modify a song...haha...after i hav master my finger stlye im goin to buy elect guitar...haha guess shld be time...but not tat soon...i think shld be around this comin dec?...well depends which level i am in nw...but i think will be soon...coz i can see improvement nw...after so long...LOLs....imagine using elect guitar to play for cell...hey i seen ppl doin tat...is jux so cool!...the atmosphere is realli different...wif elect guitar...esp in enclose area...

have a great time todae...cell outreach event at sylvia's hse...find thoese guys tat quite potential...after mixing wif dem...dey are very friendly...haha...i jux love the chicken wing and the satay is sooo damm nice...manage to get quite a number of potential souls...wow this is de first time we do such event and got so much potential ppl....indeed outreach is a tiring job...but no pain no gain rite?...at least i get a chance to see different types of ppl...haha...praying hard tat thoese ppl will go to unwind this comin sat...argh! im still hungry i wan tat chicken wing...todaes posting is rather long i think?...well i still havent end the post yet...

God is showing me grace...things in my life start to change...i start to mix well wif ppl in my sch...at least we get to noe each other better...hav a great talk with my bro the other night...we really discuss on our family matter...at least we got a better chance to noe each others needs and doubts...i can start to understand a little in class nw...at least better den im totally lost rite?...haha...my finiacial is reovering nw...even thu i still got a $160 internet bill havent pay...guess i shld hlp my bro a little in his bills...this is wat family are for rite?...even thu my life is lyk not goin well sum sort lyk "SWAY" in almost everything...not tat i belif in luck is lyk sum sort lyk very sway...not jux once or twice is lyk lots of times...but i guess im happy with tat...God is testing my paitents...starting to overcome stage fright even thu i still hav a long way to go...but i see a little little improvement...i guess nw i can play at least a little better in cell nw...jux tat i need a long period of warm ups....

mayb my guitar teacher is comin to church and teach...its still not confirm yet...but i guess is realli a blessing thru me to this church...im quite happy abt it...is lyk is so rare to find such a proffesional hu can teach praise and worship in such a price is realli a blessing...im realli blessed by this teacher...he is realli realli a very very nice person...his not tat kind of teach liao take money den go tat type de...he realli tat kind make sure tat u noe...he oso dun mind dragging de lesson for additional 1 or 2 hrs to teach me more stuff...even i cannot catch all...he will still take up 1 or 2 hr additonal to teach me de next week...even i still dun understand a certain thing he dun mind teaching me online on msn...he jux soooo coool!!!.....he oso posted a web for online learning and is free..... selftaughtguitarist.net ...go check it out de videos online...

next cell is comin soon...is realli a great challenge for me to face my fear...i jux hate to play infront of ppl...but i still hav to overcome it to go to the next level...I WILL OVER COME!!!.....GET LOST U BLOOODY SATAN!!!!.......dun let me see u again...or else i will pluck off ur horns on head and stuff it into ur nosetrails and pluck off ur tail and stuff it in to ur left ear and cme our frm the right ear...and i will break the front 2 long teeth...i will make sure i use de D&T file ...and file off ur teeth...i will will peel off ur skin and dye is blue instead of red....too bad i will not give up tat easy...stp telling me to give up!!....i will not too badd!!!